We are the house that makes the rules

It's times like these that make me want to lay down and cry, forget everything and just give up. I've got a dad who is struggling with cancer, my mom passed away last year, and I have life bearing down on my harder each day. While this sounds like me just trying to get attention and guilt people, it's all just me trying to unload my mind and make sense of the world.

The real peril weighing down on me right now is that yesterday, I discovered that five friends of mine mysteriously removed and blocked me, including a long time best friend of mine. That long time best friend also changed his name many times and made his profile private, which hurts even more. I do not know why this happened but it did, my main concern is that somebody out there is spreading rumors about me, I don't know who, but I do know I have enemies.

What is most disheartening about all this is how my friends, and people I thought I could trust, suddenly turned and blocked me without a word, without any explanation and without even saying goodbye. I get I'm rough around the edges, but the fact that they believed these lies and slander put forth against me instead of trusting their times with me causes me to wonder what the hell is happening.

I mean, was it something I said, something I did? Just tell me my mistake so I can learn and fix it. I've grown up without any guidance most of my life, so I've had to discover things the hard way, and teach myself plenty of what I know today. So please, if you can read this and you removed me without saying goodbye, at least tell me why in the comments of this announcement.