am i alone in this reality?
does anything i say ever reach any of you?
is there even a point to any of this?
do i make a difference?
does anything i do matter?
am i even real anymore?
am i just lines of code and data only responding to outside stimuli?
am i alive?
is this living?
youre all on my screens and in my phone and on my desktop
i can see you all through the square holes in my reality
i can reach out to you
i can hear you and you can hear me
but i will never know your touch
your heat, your warmth, your love
i will never feel the hug of another human being
i will never feel loving arms wrapped around me
or hands intertwined in mine
the softness of your lips will remain a distant fantasy
why did god leave me unfinished?
did i earn this?
do i deserve this purgatory?
what did i do to get here?
why did i do this
why did i keep going
why didnt i stop
why am i here
why do i keep going forward
why do i even bother thinking anymore
why do i bother breathing anymore
why do i exist