I commissioned this profile avatar from my friend Ovaettr [ovaettr.gay]

Light Club - Blizzard
Mr. Sauceman - Pizza Engineer

Tumblr [www.tumblr.com] (only if you're a friend though.)
GitHub [github.com]
Discord tag: message me for it.

IF YOU ARE GOING TO SEND ME A FRIEND REQUEST W/O MY PERMISSION: if your sole social media is Steam, it would be a wise idea to provide me a good reason in the comment section on why you are doing this, and to contact me otherwise -- I won't accept friend requests out of the blue if I don't know you good enough from before, and you're just looking to trade with me.

3rd of July, 2022: White supremacists, xenophobes, Nazis, TERFs, and SWERFs alike should GTFO of my sight. You are not my friend, and never will be my ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ friend. Have an unjust day.


"Sometimes, ya just gotta have a little fun in life sometimes."
"The best kinds of ninjas are the ones who hide... in plain sight."
"You cannot read me like a book -- I'm an iceberg that hides the details underwater."
"Anger degrades; calmness upgrades."
"Rain is like water hitting the stones on the shore."
"Seize the day, as it waits for no one."
"When envy becomes your prime motivator... you have nothing to lose."

Hello there, it's me, you've read my profile name, so you know who I am. What you might not know about what I am, is that I'm a game mod creator ready to unleash either sweet dreams... or your worst nightmares!

I am an Anxious Autistic Trans Non-Binary Trigender Ambiverted recluse. Don't try saying that 3x fast. My three genders are masculine, feminine, and androgynous, all coexisting with one another. My pronouns are she/her, they/them, and zie/zir.
I have seasonal depression -- well, chances are I might have bipolar disorder type II instead. Don't take my word for it.

I prefer learning on my own, and working alone. With the part about being an anxious ambiverted recluse having been said, I'm mostly fine with talking to others, and working/playing with other people.
Don't judge me by my level. It is so bloody meaningless to me and the things I do here!

I enjoy listening to Carpenter Brut, Dance with the Dead, Perturbator, SNES SPC tracks, Madness: Project Nexus' OST by Locknar and Cheshyre, DM Dokuro's Cave Story Arranged album and his Calamity Mod OST, Danny Baranowsky, Ridiculon, Terraria's OST, Darkest Dungeon's OST, Darkest Dungeon II's OST, Pizza Tower's OST by .
I'm very amateurish at speaking German (the only German phrases I know well are 'Danke schön', 'Bitte schön' and 'Ach du lieber Gott.' I've also constructed one phrase for a greeting to my pals in my spare time by cross-referencing a dictionary.)

While I'm no avid watcher of anime, I've taken some liking to Lupin III, and to Studio Trigger and some of their work, like Kill La Kill and Little Witch Academia. Also there's P&Sw/G (acronymized bc I'm better off safe than sorry.)


CW: Suicide attempt, reading this bit is completely optional
As of the 1st of January, 2021, I have since became a survivor of at least two suicide attempts. With that said, as long as there is someone out there in the world that loves me, be it friends or family... I will do my best to keep living.

As of the 18th of August, 2021, I've now survived at least four suicide attempts. I think I have officially found my own inner hell, and... I'm a little more at peace w/ myself now, bc of that..
End of CW

I've since been able to find some solace from this horrible point in my life. I am very grateful for all of my friends and family members who were able to stay by my side whilst I ended up taking the road less traveled.


Writing things is my passion, and so is, well, the aforementioned 'creating game mods' part. Not to mention, Garry's Mod art-ing (and animating in the future) and acting are another favorite hobby.

One of my favorite things to do whenever I feel like it is creating pixel art.

I'm fairly decent at programming in C#, C++, (hopefully) C, LUA, and Squirrel.

Not only that, but I love to loop video game music tracks in my spare time. I'll even go as far as to splice the music up in order to get it to loop properly. I use a lightweight music player, which supports loop metatags, to listen to the fruits of my and others' labor for countless hours on end.

Note: I can only play some of these when I have enough time to spare.
* I prefer to play either Normal or Advanced (and rarely, Expert) difficulty on Left 4 Dead 2, main or add-on campaigns of all kinds.
-- I tend to craft personal Mutation mode [left4dead.fandom.com] mods of my own, to varying degrees of what I think is 'success.'
* I also prefer to play MVM on Team Fortress 2, with custom maps and missions.
-- I once tried my luck at being a MVM mission creator. It's safe to say that it didn't end so well for me various times.
* I 'also, also,' like playing Garry's Mod (the hours spent should tell you.)
-- I am (mostly) a GMod artist!
* PAYDAY 2 is my kind of game, playing around with it is what I do in my days. Sadly not anymore!
* I'm a big fan of indie games, because I find 'em innovative and awesome for me to play.
-- Don't Starve + DLCs and Don't Starve Together are big faves of mine.
-- I play a lot of Terraria, mainly on its modded version, tModLoader.
-- I also play Darkest Dungeon from time to time, often. NOTE: I did not get the respective achievements "Murder of Crows" and "In such haste..." legitimately, the game bugged for no reason and gave them to me around the events the important requirements could've been set off at (i.e. beating the Shrieker's mission, or beating the game.) I will put down the dates of "properly" gotten achievements, once I end up properly fulfilling the conditions for them.
* I play Studio Pixel's games, such as Cave Story (original, not Plus) and Kero Blaster.
* I've played a ♥♥♥-ton of BTD6... and yes, I did go far enough to even play to completion some maps on CHIMPS mode. (Mostly, arrogantly, pridefully, and stubbornly guideless, even, to boot, including the dreaded Bazaar.)
* I have avidly played (and even attempted modding) MADNESS: Project Nexus , how couldn'tcha tell? XV
* Oh Pizza Tower, where would I be without ya today? I've spent too long doing whatever I can to learn the hell out of the game, up to and including P-ranking every single stage and boss battle several times, and doing a "John Suit" run and "Holy Sh-t! Final Judgement" run.
* Expect me to bounce around in skill levels at various times.