Last...
last night I drove to Harper's ferry and I thought about you
there were signs on the roads that warned me of stop signs
the speed limit kept decreasing by ten as we entered a town about halfway there
it was almost raining at the train station we put our hoods on our heads at the train station
we threw rocks into the river
the river underneath the train tracks
and when the train came it was so big and powerful
when it came into the little station
I wanted to put my arms around it
but the conductor looked at me funny
so we had to say goodbye and leave
the monopoly board still in the backseat
took that nightmare left turn to get out of town
ran into the decreasing speed limits again
what should I do
eat breakfast
what should I do
eat lunch
what should I do
eat dinner
what should I do
go to bed
where can I go
go to the store
where can I go
go to a friend's
where can I go
apply for jobs
where can I go

go to bed.

I wrote beach death when I thought you were taken
I wrote beach funeral when I knew you were taken
I wrote beach ♥♥♥♥ well it wasn't about you but it could have been
well... well no it couldn't have
I spent a week in ocean city
came back to find you were gone
I spent a week in Illinois
came back to find that you were still gone
I pretended you were drunk when I came out to my friends
I never came out to my friends
we were all on Skype
and I laughed and I changed the subject
she said what's with this dog motif
and I said

do you have something against dogs?

I am almost completely soulless
I am incapable of being human
I am incapable of being inhuman
I am living uncontrollably
it should be called anti-depression
as a friend of mine suggested
because it's not the sadness that hurts you
it's the brains reaction against it
it's not enough to love the unreal
I am inseparable from the impossible
I want gravity to stop for me
my soul yearns for a fugitive from the laws of nature
I want a cut scene
I want a cut
from your face
to my face
I want a cut I want the next related video

I don't want to go insane
I don't want to have schizophrenia

the ocean washed over your grave

the ocean washed over your grave

a book of Audrey Beardsley art corrupted me in youth
and now I'm stuck inside my youth
and you're in love with late stage youth
thank god for the little things I said
♥♥♥♥ god for the little things I am
running out of prayers to sing
we said we hated humans
we wanted to be humans
we said we hated humans
we wanted to be humans
get more groceries get eaten get more groceries get eaten get more groceries get eaten

In the mall in the nighttime
you came back alone with a flashlight
wen gnihton of trats eht saw ti
but it was my favorite scene
I couldn't tell you what it means
but it meant something to me
and pretty soon you'll find some nice young
satanist with braces and one
capital 'O' significant Other
and you can take him home to your mother and say "Ma...
This is my brother"
we said we hated humans
we wanted to be humans
we said we hated humans
we wanted to be humans
get more groceries get eaten get more groceries get eaten get more groceries get eaten
by the one you love
as the put their lips around you
you can feel their smile from the inside


Last night I dreamed he was trying to kill you
I woke up and I was trying to kill you
your ears perked up
I perked up when your ears perked up
you were all looking around
and I hoped it was for me
I hoped you were using your sonar systems for me
the ancients saw it coming
you can see that they tried to tell them
in the tales that they told their children
they said sex can be frightening
but the children were not listening
and the children cut out everything
except for the kissing and the singing
and when they finally found their homes
at Walt Disney studios
and when they finally grew up
with their fundamental schemas ♥♥♥♥♥♥
but but but there are lots of fish left in the sea
there are lots of fish in business suits
that talk and walk on human feet
and visit doctors have weak knees
oh please let me join your cult
I'll paint my face in your colors
you had a real nice face
and I
I had an early death

the ocean washed over your grave
the ocean washed open your grave
the ocean washed over your grave
the ocean washed open your grave
oh god
the ocean washed over your grave
the ocean washed open your grave
the ocean washed over your grave
the ocean washed open your grave
how's your face? how's your body?
the ocean washed over your grave
the ocean washed open your grave
we're too scared to do ♥♥♥♥
the ocean washed over your grave
the ocean washed open your grave
we're too scared to do ♥♥♥♥