yeah i know what you mean, but with every work you do, you learn new things and get better

I had to overcome myself and endure very incomprehensible things to me. Even though I have understood some part, there remains a lot of unexplored things to be revealed.

as long you enjoy making mods that people then use on there servers or singleplayer, you can be proud of yourself doing it Alone.
a couple of months ago i try it my self, i used Blender and Bbush tutorial, the Model looked good for me, a 1993 Lincoln Town Car, but i failed by the Wheels and texturing.

Yeah, I work alone)