You say this is suicide
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You say this is suicide
I say this is a war
And I'm losing the battle


I'm broken and dead inside.


I need a mind erase option, less air to the brain
If God was alive he would've amended us
But then again no one has it as bad as I have or ever will
To the extent that if I have to finish this
I might have to leave everything else undone
And it's all numb anyway



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Who'll write my obituary once I find the cemetery?
Live, because you're dying (quickly)
I'm still trying (we don't really know)
No, life is a show, and tragedies are never fair

"She craves the contents of my loaded gun, squeeze out a round onto her eager tongue."

"I sometimes wonder what it'd be like to be out of my mind
It's such a good excuse to commit such heinous crimes
That in mind, I'd go find that pathetic little prick
He'd be crying by the time that his head met with a brick
Dropped in a canyon, help has now arrived
Just two of us, but I'm the one alive"
- Hail the Sun
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My favorite band is Bring Me The Horizon

About Me:
Age: 19
Gender: Male
Favorite Type of Music: Metalcore
Where I live: Utah
Favorite Games: Arma 3, Wargame: Red Dragon, and Rainbow Six: Siege
Best Friends: Ally, Chance, Mary, Ikaros, Winters, Dante, Mercury, and, Levi
Favorite Bands: Bring Me The Horizon, Hail The Sun, A Lot Like Birds, Asking Alexandria, Beartooth, and Falling in Reverse.
Concerts I've seen live: Asking Alexandria: 10 Years in the Black, at The Complex| SLC, UT. Beartooth: Aggresive Tour, at The Complex| SLC, UT, Falling in Reverse, Motionless in White, and Issues at The Complex| SLC, UT
Concerts I'm going to see: TBD


About me: Built my own PC, didnt break it yet, 10/10
UPDATE: ♥♥♥♥♥♥' broke it.
UPDATE 2: ♥♥♥♥♥♥' fixed it.

Personality: https://www.16personalities.com/intp-personality

I recently removed 196 friends, if you are still here, there's a reason for it :3

All of the song titles below are links :3



Bring Me The Horizon Lyrics <3
Tell Slater Not To Wash His D*ck: "You've got a mouth like a razor-blade.
It cuts so deep.
So kiss my lips and my neck, and give me eternal sleep."

Cheslea Smile: "I may look happy, but honestly dear,
the only way I'll really smile is if you cut me ear to ear.
I see the vultures, they watch me bleed.
They lick their lips, as all the shame spills out of me."

Dont Go: "We all have our horrors and our demons to fight.
But how can I win, when I'm paralyzed?
They crawl up on my bed, wrap their fingers around my throat.
Is this what I get for the choices that I've made?"

It Never Ends: "I've said it once, I've said it twice, I've said it a thousand ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ times
That I'm OK, that I'm fine, that it's all just in my mind
But this has got the best of me, and I can't seem to sleep
It's not 'cause you're not with me, it's 'cause you never leave

I've said it once a thousand ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ times
You say this is suicide,
I say this is a war
And I'm losing the battle
Man down, man down, oh"

Black and Blue: "I can help you see the light
Out of your despair,
You tie the rope,
I'll kick the ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ chair!

I feel the malice in my veins
My heart swells with hatred in your name,
And when you've got nothing to turn black and blue,
You've still got Hell to look forward to"

It Was Written In Blood: "Goodbye my friend, goodbye my love, you're in my heart
It was preordained that we should part"

The Sadness Will Never End: "Is there hope for us?
Can we make it out alive?
I can taste the failure on your lips
Is there hope for us?
Can we make it out alive?
I can taste the failure

Close your eyes
There's nothing we can do
But sleep in this bed that we made for ourselves
You're trapped in your past
Like it's six feet under

I won't give up on you
These scars won't tear us apart
So don't give up on me
It's not too late for us
I'll save you from yourself
I'll save you from yourself
I'll save you from yourself
I'll save you from yourself

Try to numb the pain
With alcohol and pills
But it won't repair your trust
You can't stand on two ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ feet
With a substance as a crutch"

Crooked Young: "We don't sleep, we don't eat
We speak in tongues
We can't die, we're dead inside
No, death can't touch...
The crooked young"

Who Wants Flowers When You're Dead? Nobody: "A cherry sunset blossoms,
But we're not there to watch it fall,
On the vacant canvas, we should be waiting,
with our face down on the grass,
Staring till our eyes give way,
Let's paint this city black,
While the night's still young,

You,

This cherry sunset withers,
Our words, as frail as paper,
A dawn I thought we'd never see,
Alone on this silent beach,
There is nothing we can do,
There is nothing we can do,

The sky, it burns itself out,
The sky, it burns itself out,
The sky, it burns itself out,
The sky, it burns itself,

The trees rot down to nothing,
Throats dry out and corpses fill the sidewalks,
These promenades, our graveyards"

Off The Heezay:
"Off The Heezay,
I've been taken from your arms
So many times I've felt this before.
The sheets are tangled
And they don't feel right on my carcass.
Like you do.

This is my revenge!
For every second sleep has stole
I feel dead
I feel dead inside.
I feel dead
I feel so ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ dead
I feel dead
I feel so dead!"

Liquor & Love Lost:
"I thought I saw your eyes
Laced in smoke & cigarette curls
I thought I saw your eyes
But I'm seeing ghosts tonight

She haunts me!
'til my bitter end
She haunts me!

I swear I heard your voice, overwhelmed by conversation
I swear I heard your voice but I'm hearing ghosts tonight!
The bars turn out their lights
And I drink away the day as it decays

So much for living forever
So much for death do us part

She haunts me!
She haunts me!
She haunts me!
Every ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥...
NIGHT!"

Blessed With A Curse:
"Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.
And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.
I know I said my heart beats for you.
I was lying girl, it beats for two.
'Cause I've got your love when I've got these vices.

Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.
Take back every word I've said, ever said to you.

Ever since this began, I was blessed with a curse.
And for better or for worse I was born into a hearse.
I know I said my heart beats for you.
I was lying girl. I've been lying to you..."

They Have No Reflection:
"Twist the knife, it won't last forever,
Twist the knife, it won't last,
Forever, it won't last forever,
So nail the casket,
Now..."

Traitors Never Play Hangman:
"You're a traitor to my heart,
You're a traitor to us ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ all,

I don't want to kiss anyone,
I don't want to kiss anyone but you,
I ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ love you"

The Comedown:
"Tell all my friends I said goodbye, clenched teeth and fluttering eyes
I can't go on like this.
Tell all my friends I said goodbye, clenched teeth and fluttering eyes
I can't go on like this."

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I've got those pinpoint pupils
Ive got those nodding head rolls
Ive got a dangerous pulse!!

Cut me off from this world please tourniquet

Re-draw the line
I can't stop lying about the lines I'm cooking
I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO LIVE
Shut up!

It's like the spoons are disappearing from the kitchen counter
I keep them hidden in the bathroom with my new found lover
Getting number, I'm my brother, brother

My body is here, but my mind is worlds away
Worlds away
My mind is worlds away
How can I be the one, to tell you it wasn't me
Every time i said this is me, when it wasn't
Who do you trust?? Him or me??
He is Me!!!

I'm disappearing in the bathroom with my new found lover!

There goes my brain
There goes my brain
There goes my name!
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𝓛𝓾𝓬𝔂 Feb 19 @ 1:24pm 
Happy Belated Birthday my Friend, been awhile since Ive stopped in and said Hi. All is well, things are finally turning around for me and I'm thankful you're up there watching over me buddy. I always think about ya Kam. You were one of the real ones <3
100mechs Jan 23 @ 6:59pm 
Happy belated :)
<3⁧⁧Strafe Jan 7 @ 3:22pm 
Happy birthday kam, miss you brotha
DeadPool™ Dec 11, 2023 @ 8:33pm 
2121 days since we were both corps lethaling people who didnt need to be lethaled and spike stripping nakeds in kav. I miss you bro.
<3⁧⁧Strafe Aug 13, 2023 @ 1:57am 
2000 days. Still thinkin bout u all the time kam
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Just an intrusive thought while thinking of some of the best days on Olympus. I still miss you, I hope wherever you are, you are at peace.