..As time went by, through the years i got into depression.. deep depression and deep lust and bad things like that..
from 2020 even deeper, to the year from like 2021 and 2022 even deeper..
i couldnt sleep i just wanted to end it all.. but i knew the truth and
i was listening to worship musics like and even singing it sometimes
Way Maker - Paul McClure | Moment and worship music's like these but a lot of times i couldnt cuz something was pulling me down..
everytime back down.. and back down even deeper..
perverted dark thoughts in my mind when i was trying to listen and worship God because i wanted help inside..
and i wasnt happy at all in these times, i was praying praying and i couldnt change it,
i wanted to change my mind to keep out these dark thoughts i couldnt..
it was all a mess in my mind..
and i deep down i wanted something to happen finally.. and when 2023 January came,
in that month i decided this is enough, i dont want this anymore i want God..
i was keep searching videos like Todd White and Chris Pastor and videos like these,
and i came across a video on Youtube on the day of 2023 January 15..
Atheist to Revivalist - Isaiah Saldivar's TESTIMONY
in the video there was this music: Amber Brooks - Like You Promised
and i was listening to that music and i realized its a cool music, its not bad,
and i was singing but not loud just with my heart, just like every worship music before..
and on 2023 January 18. out of nowhere i got a message from my big brother:
If you want to, come to worship service where they preach and pray.. i said that sounds good because i want to
but i still didnt told nobody i had depression and i was fighting with things like these, i knew only these deep bad things..
I always somehow knew God has a perfect plan..
Finally on February 2 night i decided to go with my big brother and still i didnt tell nobody nothing.. so we got there and at the end of preaching and worshiping, im speechless still..

On that night everything changed.. The woman who i never knew prayed over me and she knew everything that i knew only,
but i knew that God sees everything all the time, but i was like
i knew these stuff only but that woman knew everything and i knew in that couple minutes God was speaking through her,
and the first words of God was:
Im not mad at you, I love you.. and you will follow me twice as more now, and you will cling to me like that twice..
in this deep pit you even wanted to kill yourself.. but the Lord say this:
I bring you out from this pit, this was a deep pit, but I clean you completely, your sins are forgiven,
from every deep pit i bring you out
And instead of depression comes joy in your life, and the Lord put your feet on the rock..
You are free from this day.. demonic chains have been broken off from you.. i will never be the same..
And i was just crying out my heart, whom the son sets free is free indeed
The Lord Jesus Christ literally saved me on that day, and literally im not the same anymore,
i dont have a dark thought in my mind since then, not a single perverted dark thought anymore..
and i finally feel happy again now that i know that the Lord loves me and im just speechless..
I know that the Lord hears you too and even when you dont speak he knows you full and the bible tells it all, its true
Just pour out your heart to God and say anything you want to him, if you need just cry out to God he is closer than you think..
Now i know the truth.. God has a perfect plan, and dont think for a minute you are not part of his kingdom, come to him,
just come to him, talk to God
Because God see you in every moment even when you dont feel like it or even when you dont think this way..
Thanks for reading, and remember God loves you with an eternal love that we cant comprehend right now but we will!!!
(This is only a small part of the story and important part cuz Steam allows 4000 character only)