"Be A LITTLE CRAZY TO STAY SANE," Have Fun & Appreciate What We Do Have.
--COLIN--2024--JUZTINZANE--JuztnMyiz?--

July/2024
To anyone that sees me on line over the next 6 wk's, give or take, it's hopefully my son and I haven't been hacked. He will likely be playing one of my other games. You can message if U want, I don't think he bites. LATTER --JuztnMyiz?--

Should Be This Simple !!!
LOVE IS- Knowing Someone or Something that makes you feel good
LOVING IS- Treating Someone or Something like a friend
A FRIEND IS- Someone or Something you treat like yourself
LIKING- Someone or Something will hold this all together
TRUST & HONESTY - with Someone or Something is a BOND Forever
--JUZTINZANE--1974--2023--IT'S Juztn MyEyes--

"APPEARANCE"
Not always what we decide IT IS. But can be used by all LIFE, capable of recognizing, it's and other's existence. Using Appearance as one method of Survival, to Attract, and or Repel. Intended to help ensure the Continuation of a Species, to protect and help preserve their own kind. WE learn we are Given what we NEED for our survival and soon Realize, how to Manipulate to get what we WANT, through the use of "APPEARANCE" and "Whatever Works". No concern about consequences to You, Me or anything in our way. Sadly, we are all born into this web of Self Survival. It appears to be, "THE Master of our Race", influencing our lives and filling our minds with False Impressions, "PROMISES" "LIES" just to preserve our Personal Existence. All becoming both "TAKER" and "GIVER". Whether Or Not we realize or even want to Admit this, It Is, WHAT WE DO. From what I have Experienced, most of us just want to be ACCEPTED. "TRUST" is most Important for our Species to survive! But what do we do with the Pain of DISTRUST? Build walls and use the "APPEARANCE" of Something we are NOT, to help Hide the Physically & Mentally Damaging way of living in the Shadows, Trusting no-one, moving us closer to the EXTINCTION of our Individual Uniqueness and Likely our Race. Fortunately, some of us have learned to take the Negative and find a Positive. If we want to Accept that it's there we will see it. As resourceful as we are, I believe we will find our way out of this MENTAL MADNESS. Hoping this is not, Juztn MyEyes.
--JUZTINZANE--1979--2023--Juztn MyEyes--

To Want Too Stay Free-

What is it that is happening
What is it taking place
The lies that which we live in
Are choking the human race

The things we hold of value
Are born of selfish greed
To stand inside the lime light
We'll cut you to your knees

It really is quite funny
To see how we can laugh
It really is a joke
When we play and when we dance

I know just what can happen
In the mind of humans delight
But are we someone's puppets
Or do we control our lives

It takes a lot of guts
To want too stay free
It's only going to happen
If it comes from you and me
--JUZTINZANE--1982-

DECEMBER/2023
Something I Need To Say - Juztn MyEyes -
My wife and I met with, LIKE AND LUST, in Our Eyes, THEN CAME THE WILLINGNESS TO UNDERSTAND & ACCEPT each other. As it turned out, * LUST IS EASY * LOVE IS HARD * LIKE IS MOST IMPORTANT *. 40 yrs together. Not Perfect, could have been worse. I learned to speak WIFE real quick. Still trying to improve some things, but "Will NOT Be CONTROLLED BY" things I Can't CHANGE. Nov. 28 / 2023, Her time to move on. I can only hope our Souls will at least, meet again. "LIKING" Each other made it easier for us to hold this all together. I know we experienced what "LOVE IS" and learned to be respectful of each others wishes. Whether in agreement or not, we could always compromise. Her "LOVING IS" "UNCONDITIONAL" !!! and treated me and others like, what "A FRIEND IS". Trust & Honesty IS, very difficult to give to anyone. I know how hard it was for her to eventually let her Guard down for me. I should have Trusted that she would NEVER knowingly hurt me. If I just let go of the last brick in My wall, " MY TRUST INSECURITY ", it would have allowed her to be my Best and Only True, Honest Friend. I was so close, BUT **MUCH TOO LATE** I C U Now SHELLEY. A Wise Woman said, "You Don't Know What You've Got Till It's Gone."
--COLIN--2023--JUZTINZANE--

Something Else I Need To Say Before I Can't, Kuz You Never Know
I'm Dealing with my wife's death, while trying to face the fear of whatever is coming next. For 40 yrs. Shelley took care of me, kicked my asz, Accepted and Allowed me, to be me. She tried to make me see that, I can change a Negative attitude, to a Positive. If we don't See it, we'll never Acknowledge it. Those who actually LOVE us don't get the Credit they deserve. I am 70, hiding in the Shadows, before, while with her and now that she has gone. I've come to believe that whatever we experience, there is always a Solution to a Problem. Be careful what Choice you make, Kuz - - -KARMA - - - Not always an " AZHOLE " seems intent on showing us we have "FREE WILL" to make our own Decision and the consequences that go with it. I DON'T Know ABSOLUTELY, about a lot of things. However, I do know, I never thought I would fall back into the PIT of DEPRESSION as easily or as hard. When I originally decided not to Associate, I became like a picture on a wall. When I did trust, I was almost always used for their benefit. It almost Destroyed me. I didn't understand until I realized, I was allowing it, I just wanted to fit in. Eventually I could see how Insecure, WE ALL ARE, in one way or another, and that most of us want to be the Center of Anyone's, Attention, or at Least Recognized as Someone, not just a Means to an End. I do believe, if you want something, go for it. However, there is a lot of Competition trying to achieve Dreams, Goals and Desires. Everyone has their own talent and if given a chance we could all be in our own Limelight. When I'm in my so called "RATIONAL" state of mind, even though I stay to myself as much as possible, I like who I am, but far from having a Halo and or Wings. I don't feel I have to compete or prove anything. I can do some things well, and have learned not to condemn myself when I can't. However I really suck at conversation. Judgment seems to come easily to many of us. I can now look past, First Impressions. I don't have to like it but can See, and usually feel, there is always more than what is shown. Here, on STEAM, it took almost 2yrs. to accept "FRIENDS." I don't know if any of you can relate to this or even care but I'm here till I can't be. If I could Paint a Picture and not use words, I would. So, to present and new "FRIENDS," I do Appreciate Your Acceptance. "Be A LITTLE CRAZY TO STAY SANE" and Have Fun.
--COLIN--2024--JUZTINZANE--JuztnMyiz?--