I've never had many friends. It's not really here or there but I've always felt like I was waiting for the right moment when I'd feel less anxious and less sad and I'd be able to be happy and smile and talk to people the way a normal person should.

I felt happy playing Final Fantasy 15. I wasn't just running around with "my party members". I was spending time with my friends. I did every side quest I could find. As I progressed through the story, I grew more and more anxious because I knew it was ending and I didn't want it to.

It's hard for me to talk about this game because you never really understand how much something mattered until it's gone.

FFXV mattered to me. After it ended I cried. I wanted more time with my friends.