thinking of you

Your still in my thoughts

I'm a little embarrassed to admit I don't know how you wound up on my friend list. I have no memory of us meeting and we don't even share any games in common. How did we cross paths? When was it? I clicked on your name recently and discovered you haven't been in this world for a few years now. I don't remember how we met, but I'm sad that I missed the chance to be your friend, Stranger. Whoever you were, Seems like you were a great guy. I hope you're in a better place now.

another day in which i miss you, hard to keep track now it feels

six years rip

its new years and 2024 draws near, i cant say i ever stopped thinking about you, it feels like a curse in a way having these feelings of loss that never will go away because youll always be away from this realm, but i cant say im angry at you or feel any contempt whatsoever, the pain of loss and the loss of pain caused by it always will hurt, i feel numb to this day, but ill always love you, being older then you feels odd to me and i cant help but think of you when my birthday comes and new year comes and the 14th comes and just often, i cant really word my thoughts right. i love you, we all love you, i hope one day we can meet again, the thought of you brings me pain but if i could go back to any place or time for even a hour itd be 2017 and early 2018 just to talk to you one last time,i often read our convo from the night before your passing, and i wonder how things would be if you were still here. i love you john, we all love you, forever in our hearts and eternally in our minds