mtrxalienvirus
Death   Massachusetts, United States
 
 
"I had no interest in growing up, or in any career at all. But we get pressured to decide, so we pick a career just to pick something - to fit in - and to make our teachers, parents, and elders happy. Then we wake up to that hysterical alarm clock
Fifteen years later and wonder:

Why the hell am I so damn miserable?"



L̶̂͝Ò̶̚S̵̃̚T̸̾̄ ̴͗͝T̴̑̆O̵̡͊ ̵̻̈T̷͊ͅH̸̓̽E̴͐͋ ̷̆͠Ẑ̸̞O̶̎͌Ń̵͋Ë̶́̑

Depression isn't a disorder, it's the sad realization that the world surrounding us is meaningless and everything is temporary.

"Stop texting first and see how much useless friendships you have"



NEW PC SPECS:2022-
INTEL CORE I5-12600K 3.7 GHz 10 CORE PROCESSOR
NOCTUA DH-D15 CHROMA.BLACK 82.52 CFM CPU COOLER
MSI MAG Z690 TOMAHAWK WIFI DDR4 ATX LGA1700 MOTHERBAORD
CORSAIR VENGEANCE RGB PRO 32GB (4 x 8 GB) DDR4-3200 CL16 MEMORY
SAMSUNG 970 EVO PLUS 500 GB M.2
NIVIDIA FOUNDERS EDITION GEFORCE RTX 2060 super
Fractal Design Torrent ATX Mid tower case
EVGA 850 POWER SUPPLY
NOCTUA A14 PWM CHROMAX.BLACK FAN (Extra fan for back since case comes with 5 fans 2 front 3 botom)




OLD PC Specs:2019-2022
AMD Ryzen 5 2600 Six-Core Processor 3.40 GHz
Geforce FOUNDERS EDITION GEFORCE RTX2060 Super
Rog Strix B450-F Gaming
Corsair Vengeance RGB Pro 16 GB (2 x 8 GB) DDR4-3200 CL16 Memory
EVGA 850 power supply
SAMSUNG 970 EVO PLUS 500GB M.2
3Tb hard drive
NZXT H500 ATX Mid Tower Case

Discord: mtrxalienvirus#66666
Uplay: mtrxalienvirus
Uplay second account: dragonkillr556
Battle net/Blizzard: mtrxalien#1959
Origin: BrownDirtWarrior
League of legends: mtrxalienvirus#6666
Escape From Tarkov: mtrxalienvirus1
Code Red
Falling for your heart now I want mine back
My brain says 'code red', cause it's tired of feeling dread
Falling for your mind cause my mind is pitch black
It tries to defend, you don't understand

This is my life, I deal with it everyday
Start to get attached but they never come my way
Looking for your eyes to scramble to me
But you never look back, now I feel so sad again


I don't like this. Always fight these
Feelings that I have way deep inside of me
I don't want this. I don't got any
Days where I could figure it out for clarity

What do you want from me?
You always come annoy
When I ask from you
You are always annoyed
I'm tryna pick up thе pieces
And figure my lifе
The dark creeps in
And I'm gasping for life, nah

So raise your glass up to the sky
Because I am out and to stars I'll fly
You don't like me. I don't think I'll come back
To the ozone. I don't wanna come back. No


I see the signs
But I'm just too dead inside
I want to be loved
But alarms keep ringing inside of my head. Nah


Falling for your heart now I want mine back
My brain says 'code red', cause it's tired of feeling dread
Falling for your mind cause my mind is pitch black
It tries to defend, you don't understand

This is my life, I deal with it everyday
Start to get attached but they never come my way
Looking for your eyes to scramble to me
But you never look back, now I feel so sad again


My heart is turning black
And so is my soul
I can feel it creeping up on me
It's been getting old, and
I can't really feel a thing anyway
Don't try to tell me that you care
I see the lie on your face

It's been a long time since I've been right
I used to come alive when it turned to nighttime
Now I only fall asleep and dream about you
It seems like death is in everything that surrounds you


I see the signs
But I'm just too dead inside
I want to be loved
But alarms keep ringing inside of my head. Nah


Falling for your heart now I want mine back
My brain says 'code red', cause it's tired of feeling dread
Falling for your mind cause my mind is pitch black
It tries to defend, you don't understand

This is my life, I deal with it everyday
Start to get attached but they never come my way
Looking for your eyes to scramble to me
But you never look back, now I feel so sad again
"I'm still wearing your necklace"
Speeding down the highway going fast
Honestly I think i want to crash
I guess that you and me weren’t made to last
Im dying young my heart beats fast

Im really ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ mad things went this way
Dont really understand the things I say
Hurt you I dont deserve you
My heart might stop but ill never desert you

Maybe I could be someone someday
I could be the one you look to
When you have something to say

I’m the night and you’re the day
With you my darkness starts to fade
And no one else could do the same
I write this song to call your name

Honest
Im not honest
I promise
To make no promise
Honest
I'm not honest, oh
I promise
To make no promise

Speeding down the highway going fast
Honestly I think i want to crash
I guess that you and me weren’t made to last
Im built to fall you’re built to stand

And I cant stand my state of mind
And loving me is a waste of time
So let me go and just waste mine
Now i can see that love is blind

Im really ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ mad this is how it is
But in the same vein i cant take this
I love you for the life you gave me
This is my last chance i need you to save me

I’m the night and you’re the day
With you my darkness starts to fade
And no one else could do the same
I write this song to call your name
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