Call upon me, I will respond to you." - Quran 40:60

"Teach me you way, Lord, that I may rely on your faithfulness; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name!" - Psalm 86:11

"Guide us to the straight path." - Quran 1:6

"My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest." - Exodus 33:14

"And he found you lost and guided[you]." - Quran 93:7

"I am the one who will sustain you." - Isaiah 46:4

"And he is with you wherever you are." - Quran 57:4

"I will walk by faith even when I can not see." - Corinthians 5:7

"And ease me for my task." - Quran 20:26

"The Lord will fight for you. All you have to do is being silent." - Exodus 14:14

"So remember me, and I will remember you..." - Quran 2:152

"The Lord is my strength and my song; he has given me victory." - Exodus 15:2


I was just a random human until the day I met one of the angels, the ones bring eternal happiness with them to everywhere they go, with every breath they give, with every thing they touch. Their faces shine like the moon in the darkest time of nights. Their halos are broken but they are still bright as hope. Their words are lovely as the morning breeze and their skins are softer than rose leafs.

I had more happiness in 13 days with her than the happiness I had for my whole life. Well, it didn't last too long as every other angelic thing. I killed my angel but failed to bury her.
I realized I have to keep living with it so I had to do more than shedding my blood, meditation attempts and abstinence of food.

Then I called God's name to show me a way in the middle of subversive silence; the silence which is like the sharpest blade in most dire dreams of true warriors, it truely shows your weakness and so your bleeding. I had nothing to lose but my pain. I was on my knees and praying for forgiveness, a way out of this nightmare.
I waited for a vague time, like years, even lives or maybe just on the wrong side of the 13 minutes-long dream. Then here it came out of nowhere:
He told me to made the Vow of Silence to show my penitence among my (new) life but later I failed to complete my penitence so I woke up from the deep, eternal sleep of blind servitude and stood up with the help of my dead angel one more time.
Now I'm in such a place; half of me is shedding leaves and the other half is full of beautiful spring flowers. There is blue moss in the first half and there is fresh ashes on the other side. What a terrible line is this! What an infuriating balance it is!

Me, the one who came back from the other side of the wrong dream to complete his penitence; the bearer of the silent sorrow and cursed heart:

The Penitent One.