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I'm mainly writing this for myself, to have a daily reminder and just to get some weight off my chest. But in case anyone's reading this, thank you. Maybe we have something in common.

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➛ I've been through a lot, like most people in this world. I've done questionable things that have destroyed the principles and values ​​I once held dear. Some would find that incredibly vile. But I'm not going to beat myself up. I accept everything as it is. At least, I'm trying.
I'm a person with mental health issues, which often cause me problems in many ways. But I cope with it as best as I can.


➛ I'm obviously not someone, who is exceptionally kind, sweet or wonderful. I have many flaws. Although I try to be empathetic, accepting and understanding, even if it can be extremely difficult.
Remaining human in this life isn't easy. The world can be cruel and turn you into a heartless monster. And if anyone reads this, let's try to fight it! We're not here to hurt others and destroy everything around us, right?


➛ I'm constantly low on energy and resources, so even just interacting with someone can be a challenge. However, I try my best to be there for the people I care about. And I'm really sorry that it doesn't always work out the way I'd like. Though I really want to keep trying to be supportive and involved, even through all the hardships.


➛ Life sucks. It's full of darkness and uncertainty. But you should never forget the bright side. Life is also full of happy and truly precious moments! Don't give up, no matter how much it seems like everything is falling apart. You have to remember that difficulties won't last forever. So don't dwell on what was meant to be temporary.
Without darkness, there would be no light.


➛ I want to live, not just exist. I want to fill the void inside, not with someone and relationships with them, but with my own efforts. Once and for all. I want to be able to enjoy even the most insignificant things and find joy even where I don't expect it.
Simple thoughts, but they can be so hard to come to. Which is quite ironic.


➛ I'm tired of suffering and overthinking. So much time is wasted on them.
After all, why are we here if not to find meaning and happiness for ourselves? So why let other things get in your way?


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                                                                          悲しい   







" 𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝘂𝗻𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗮 𝗱𝗮𝗿𝗸 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗰𝗲. 𝗜’𝗺 𝘁𝗿𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗶𝘁 𝗯𝗿𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗯𝗲𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗜 𝗱𝗶𝗲."



                                                                                                                               — 𝘔𝘢𝘴𝘴 𝘌𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵 2




" 𝗜𝗳 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗲𝘆𝗲𝘀 𝘀𝗮𝘄 𝘀𝗼𝘂𝗹𝘀, 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗱𝗶𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗿𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗮𝗹𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗯𝗲𝗮𝘂𝘁𝘆 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗯𝗲."



                                                                                                                               — 𝘒𝘪𝘻𝘯𝘢𝘪𝘷𝘦𝘳




"𝗔𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲, 𝗜 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗜 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗲𝘀𝗰𝗮𝗽𝗲. 𝗜 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗜'𝗱 𝗯𝗲 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲𝗻 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗹𝗱. 𝗜 𝗴𝗼𝘁 𝗺𝘆 𝗵𝗼𝗽𝗲𝘀 𝘂𝗽 𝗮 𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗹𝗲. 𝗕𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁'𝘀 𝗶𝗺𝗽𝗼𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝗶𝘀𝗻'𝘁 𝗶𝘁? 𝗜'𝗺 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗯𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝘂𝗹𝗲𝘀. 𝗔𝘀 𝗶𝗳 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗺𝗲 𝗮𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝘁𝗼. 𝗜'𝗺 𝘀𝗼 𝘀𝘁𝘂𝗽𝗶𝗱."



                                                                                                                              —  𝘡𝘢𝘯𝘬𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘯𝘰 𝘛𝘦𝘳𝘳𝘰𝘳




"- 𝗢𝗵, 𝗮𝘀 𝘂𝘀𝘂𝗮𝗹 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗿𝗲 𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴.
- 𝗔𝗺 𝗜? 𝗠𝗮𝘆𝗯𝗲 𝗜 𝗮𝗺, 𝗯𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝘆 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀. 𝗔𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗵𝘂𝗿𝘁 𝗜 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗶𝘀 𝗺𝘆 𝗵𝘂𝗿𝘁, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗜 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗰𝘁 𝗶𝘀 𝗻𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗱𝗮𝗺𝗻 𝗯𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀. 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲. 𝗜 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝗯𝗲 𝗵𝘂𝗿𝘁 𝗯𝘆 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲."



                                                                                                                               — 𝘛𝘸𝘪𝘯 𝘗𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘴





“𝗪𝗲𝗹𝗹… 𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗱𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗮 𝘀𝗲𝗰𝗼𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗴𝗼 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗮𝗺𝗲 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗻𝗼𝘄? 𝗔 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗻𝘂𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗺 𝗼𝗳 𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀. 𝗚𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗻 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁, 𝘄𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗰𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝗶𝗹𝗹𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻 𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝘃𝗲𝘀, 𝘀𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘄𝗲 𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗳𝗶𝘅𝗲𝗱 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗼𝗻𝗮. ”



                                                                                                                               — 𝘗𝘦𝘳𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵 𝘉𝘭𝘶𝘦




" 𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗜 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘁𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝗺𝗲, 𝗜 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗮 𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘀𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗿𝗲𝗹𝗶𝗲𝗳. 𝗜 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗴𝗼 𝗳𝗮𝗿, 𝗳𝗮𝗿 𝗮𝘄𝗮𝘆."


                                                                                                                              — 𝘌𝘳𝘢𝘴𝘦𝘥




"𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐢𝐜𝐞𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲’𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐝𝐞."


                                                                                                                   — 𝘒𝘪𝘮𝘪 𝘯𝘰 𝘚𝘶𝘪𝘻𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰 𝘛𝘢𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘢𝘪




“ 𝗜𝗳 𝗜 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗻... 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗯𝗶𝗻𝗱𝘀 𝘁𝗼𝗴𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗘𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗵 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝗸𝘆, 𝘄𝗵𝗼𝗺 𝗶𝗻 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝗲𝘁𝗲𝗿𝗻𝗶𝘁𝘆 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗴𝗹𝗲... 𝗪𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗜 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗶𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝘄𝗼 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘁𝘀 𝘁𝗼𝗴𝗲𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿?



                                                                                                                              — 𝘉𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩





"𝗜𝘁'𝘀 𝘀𝗼 𝗺𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗶𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗲𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗹𝗱 𝗶𝗻 𝗯𝗹𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝘁𝗲. 𝗚𝗿𝗮𝘆? 𝗜 𝗱𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗱𝗼 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘆..."



                                                                                                                               — 𝘔𝘢𝘴𝘴 𝘌𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵 2