https://youtu.be/k2jAm8qMBNw?t=25372&si=cskemto64kZzb2ee

Who am I?
I grew up under a very hateful mother, a mother that did not open up her mouth, a mother that shared her earnings of her mother.
A german mother, that discredited all males and searched for weak males, that had drug tendencies in order to abuse them the same way.
My father is a half german, half polish, his mother was taken out of poland, he was scared and weak and left me and my brother at the abusive hands of my mom.
My girlfriend is a ukrainian german woman, a fighter heart always speaking the truth, she has opened me, she has shown me the light in this world, her grandpa was a fullblood ukrainian and he has clearly shared his soul into his daughters.
My Wife has cleansed me from my mother, my inner evil, turkish people have shown me that i was risen up entirely wrong and hateful myself, my best friends didnt know what was going on for more than 35 years.
Im only starting to know who my dad actually is at this point, he is the one able to complete the picture of my mother.
He also came back stronger than ever, able to say STOP.
However ive had to make the first step because if the first step isnt made, it will never happen.

I have opened up myself and released my weakness in order to protect myself from any abuse.
You can only be abused, if you dont open up.
Im done with my full german female family and im done looking at them sharing the same hate against males and all the manipulation that they did.
Ive collected all the lies of my family for 35 years of my life, those tiny little pieces full of lies, other people have always seen that something was wrong with me and i knew it too but without all information, the picture of my mother was ever growing.
I tried my best to life two lifes, the so known Flex Player in Overwatch, its my strength.
My brother is yet still trying to escape and still fighting himself, he doesnt know what to believe but there is a chance that he will return the same way i did.
I kept playing, i always wanted other people to succeed, i had mentors and i was one myself and hopefuly i will be a better mentor now, than i ever was, trying to help people as i always did.
Ive shared the information with a police station of my city and the next day i returned with all collected informations, they couldnt find it, as of why im sharing the story finaly.

I always wanted to share it widespread publicy but never found the moment to do that and since i dont know who is part of a brown system, i do it that way.

What happens after my story? I‘ll try to keep doing what i can, help everyone, send them a smile at bad times, life by now is a million times easier.
Im reading books as i did as a kid, im trying to study some knowledge, learn to make videogames, go into the gym, yes i even can handle one handed pushups by now.
Life became freaking easy.


My Mentors:
Internethulk from Overwatch, who has tried his very best for a solid German Overwatch Worldcup Team under these conditions,
ex Pentasports Community Leader and TornadoTobi, which has notified Pengu's Talents shortly after ive brought the best Team into Penta Sports including Aiga, 2 weeks after they playtested Pengu.
Nightwane and SourceTV from Team YP.

Thanks for the amazing times and the great communities.

Rikku (mistakes were made ^^), Chris Ashton, 2K dB Sinclair, Ninoob, mTw.tak3r, Pansy, Bugzy, SK.Grubby, Xray, Fatal1ty, Eissfeldt, Tvique, TheFallenAngel, Toshiru, siXXteen, SammyG, Aimy, Terrex, k1ller/k1llsen and many more.

EAX Restoration Guide for all capable Games and all Audiodevices, including HRTF:

https://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=3616526781


Videogames were used to challenge your brain back in the day:
https://youtu.be/08SCdgEmAdc

Things like these made you a better player.


10.10.2015
2nd Place Evolve Major League ESL at Poland Studios LAN
Overwatch 2017 Park de Expo in Paris LAN
A little bit of CS GO and CS2 Highrank.

Player at Authentix Battlefield 4
Player at CS:S KomaCrew ~2004/05
Player at Penta Sports in Rainbow Six Siege
Player at YP ~2017 for OW
Trial at Mousesports for OW
Overwatch World Cup #1 voted and several Top500 Spots across 8+ Seasons.

Retired since.



18.12.2025
We‘ll meet again one day.

Horace Walpole - Serendipity, Die drei Prinzen von Serendip.
Christine Mark - Chef*in meinem Kopf
The Worldwide Bestseller Book Muhammed

Hideo Kojima>Exoskelett>Star Wars JediOutcast>The Matrix>Diablo2>Björn,Osnabrück>Gothic,Björn Pankratz>Gamestar>Warcraft3>Exoskelett(90%WinrateNE>Moon>EAXoskelett(85%Winrate all Races)>SK.Grubby,mTw.Tak3r(blub)>Komacrew e.V.(FallenAngel/Braini/Arab/DJ)>Terminator(TheSpecialists)>WorldofWarcraft(Ni Hao Xin Xin, Goldfarmer i helped him farming Gold it was his job and learning chinese)…
Evolve:Poland ESL Studios,dB.Sinclair,SourceTV,Nightwane…Rikku
Overwatch Release: EAX, Flex, Top500>Internethulk>Tvique>Roadhog>Cirus>m4xFPS>TeamYP, Nightwane French> OWL: Smurf: Exoskelett Top100 DPS only and Genjimain>WhoamI?IDDQD?Movie!


The List is not finished yet.
Serendipity!

Algorythms: A human selfreflection
Artificial Intelligence: a human mirror
Artificial Intelligence = Serendipity = SternTV revealed a Netflix Movie Star as another person.

SK.Grubby accidently chosen Grublord in a Tournament and confused his Opponent.
SourceTV chosen Wraith as a confusing Strategy in order to win that one game and earn YP the first place. Using Wildlife as his friends.
A elderly polish alcoholic has hit me and my friends in our faces, i held him still without harm, his familymember wanted to protect him, Pansy has opened and cleansed the situation, we all left as friends in Poland.
mTw.Tak3r known for Towerrush, the Trojan Horse (History).
Battlefield 3 = Drones

Trust, believe, see the signs.

My favourite Cars? Peugeot 205/206(CC) = my RC Line Rear Axle came incomplete from Antalex in Poland (guess what i want to say) no tractioncontrol, Oldtimers of any manufacturer (Toyota Corolla - Need for Speed - ESL competition, The Fast & Furious)
My favourite book as a kid? TKKG.

Linus Torvalds + Linus Techtips =
I never had cloud storage, if its worth something someone will save it for me.
Valve?

EAX = Creative = Auzentech = Highend Quality = openAL = HRTF openAL Soft = Raytraced Audio? = EAX Restoration Guide = Battlefield 7 with Raytraced Audio? Nvidia please?!
AMD = Mantle = VulkanAPI = DirectX12.

Take my money!

Blind People turn the Light off too early and we need their help.
Blind Dogs listen to the disabled owner and follow him based on sound.

What is Autism? Is it bad?
In germany we have a saying:
„mit den Problemen hausieren gehen“, ist das wirklich schlecht?


How do i handle my thoughts?
I had jaw problems, squeezing teeth, i went to physiotherapy, my girlfriend said i had no rhythm, i use my therapie with a twinball in order to relief backpain, while listening to staying alife and remembering my first aid, learning rhythm while laying on the duoball.
Rythm makes dancing easy to learn.
While doing so i type on my phone about how i solve my „problems“.

Am i perfect at anything? No, only 85%, others can focus and do 110%.

Thats how. If i need pain i head into the gym and go all out and train as many muscles as i can, if i take a break i read the book mohammed on a bench or in the studio, because it forces me to take a break.
If i want to train stamina, i can walk to the gym and return the time, while maybe sharing help to anyone who needs it.
My 1st gear in my transmission broke, yet i dont care because i accidently drove my car in 5th from 0 to 160Kp/H, while just thinking i had a low power engine… trust and believe, get rid of your fear and you achieve everything.

My Stories will move onto Facebook https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=61575136179977 i will follow Linus Torvalds Zitat (QUOT