I ruin everything. Friendships. Special moments. Anything positive I make negative.
I'm always so negative.
My past and my bipolar make me such a horrible person.
I wish I could be nicer.
I wish I could start over in a new life.
I wish I could make better choices.

Instead, life handed me a bunch of lemons and no will or ability to do anything with them.



To the lovely team Keraunos, I am sorry. I'm sorry I didn't leave the right way. I'm sorry I didn't properly approach you and tell you how I was feeling. You guys are an awesome team and I hope for only the best for you all.

To any friends who can now read this, I am sorry for running away if you are one of the people I unadded. I was in a bad place and did something reckless, and I am sorry if I have hurt you. I would add you back but I am afraid of hurting you even more than I already may have.

'Amalgamate' means nothing now. Please forget that name. That toxic bipolar mess of a person you once knew.