B is for Banana

Hey guys. I'm sorry to say this but this may well be the end, yet again, of the team.

Me and Simon had an argument and he left. He won't say much to me but apparently the team isn't worth his efforts. It's not his fault though, it's partly mine and partly neither of ours. I will tell you exactly what happened.

He was unhappy with n0te's anger and "toxic" behaviour and wanted to kick him, but when he told me I was under the impression that he had already been kicked. This led to me also wanting to leave, but that wasn't really the reason. Anyway, we talked more and I got annoyed at him for not wanting to try harder to help n0te; I also believed that I could do more but it seemed that him being kicked was just going to happen.

I have to leave the team regardless of what happens and Simon has already left. I will tell you why I have to leave.

I can't play csgo anymore, not for a while at least. And playing competitive is not good for me. I want to be a pro gamer more than anything but I can't. I struggle with aspects of depression including severe loss of motivation over long periods of time and I can't commit to a game for long enough for me to get good enough. I have lost interest in csgo and because of the team I felt forced to play it. I lost enjoyment. I only played because I liked to spend time with n0te.

I told Simon that I had to leave and he decided to just leave too.

I don't know what will happen now, but Simon, me and n0te are now gone, me at least from the playing side of things. I am willing to stay with B is for Banana as an 'organisation'. I like the name and logo and would like to continue with it. If anyone wants to keep going with the team, you will need to run things yourself, but I can try to help you with non-game aspects as much as I can.

However, from experience, I doubt this team will continue. I'm so sorry to announce this.

Please let me know what you decide; give me a message to either say your goodbye or tell me that you want to continue. This is probably a big surprise to you and I'm sorry that it had to come to this.

I wish you all the best in your future, in CS:GO, other games and in your real lives.

-xRay