Welcoming all Scrubs!

(Please post this to the group.)

So it's been a while. People want me to come back and that's a decision for me to make. But, I'm afraid I don't want to come back. I was looking back on all the memories I have had with all of you. Some of them made me think that I needed all of you more than anything in my life. Yet, that's true. Then I looked to the memories I have that caused so many problems. When I think of you guys I think of friends and foes. Allies and traitors. Some of you are even like a family to me. But overall, I have dreams that I want to pursue, and I know they won't happen if I stay in my position, and keep on doing what I'm doing.

I feel like I've created a drug. I've addicted so many people to other people. I've named the drug friendship, and it's killing me. I've also created the monsters that used to be honest kids, teens even. I don't want that though.

I want to know that the group will be a better place without me. So, I'm not coming back, and I might just lose touch with all of you. I wish it didn't happen this way, and you guys mean to much to me for me to just do this. But in reality, I have to. Before I go, I wanted to say sorry.

I wanted to say sorry to the natural born leader. I never should have denied you of your capabilities.

I wanted to say sorry to the ones that I always had it out for. You are some extraordinary people, and I failed to realize that.

I wanted to say sorry to the excited ones. You two know who you are, and you two should stay excited for the rest of your lives. You both have amazing futures.

I wanted to say sorry to the three of you who considered me a friend, and listened to my stupid ideas. You three all made about 3 years of my life worth living.

I wanted to say sorry to the guy who started this all. I let you down. I let all of you down actually. I let myself down, and wherever all of you all are in life, I'll remember you. That's a guarantee.

"Let us give something to each person we meet: joy, courage, hope, assurance, or philosophy, wisdom, a vision for the future. Let us always give something."
-- Daisaku Ikeda