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Hey I'm a 20 year's old boy who lives in Germany. Since 2 year's I have a Fetish. I love ♥♥♥♥'s but only ♥♥♥♥'s and not Men. I love the body of a women but my dreamgirl would have a penis and not a vagina. I would love to explore my sexuality but nobody knows about my fetish and I'm to afraid of telling it my Family and Friends. My Family would hate me because they are very religious (Moslems) and my friends wouldn't understand me. I just want a woman with a ♥♥♥♥ to ♥♥♥♥ me. What can I do ?