Manic depression or prisoner to life

[Vexkoh]

I hate living and my parents think I have manic depression and might want to change the meds I'm already taking. Honestly they're oblivious to the real me, nobody knows the real me. This place never changes; I know that life is the problem, life is a prison, but I can't express that without being labeled some pessimistic teenager. I'm extremely lonely to the point of being "socially impaired" but I honestly couldn't give a ♥♥♥♥. I can't trust people anymore, if I can't have full control over them to the point of no uncertainty than why bother. They want me to communicate more because they sense "something's changed" but nothing's changed. Why should I communicate to probably become involuntarily committed. Life is already a prison enough. Why should I tell people whether my parents, psychiatrist, or therapist that I'm sexually perverted, suicidal, and homicidal. Sounds like an easy way to get locked up to me. But anyway if you actually read this entire ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ rant then congratulations you can reply if you want or just go on with hedonistic motivations like typical human ♥♥♥♥.

[DarkCrystalMethod]

This is just life's little way of telling you to its time to move out of your parent's house.

[Thermal Lance]

Given the closing statement, I'm not surprised you feel lonely. Who would want that kind of attitude around?

[bisder]

You need to have some fun before you stroke out. An amusement park, maybe the zoo. Skiing or snowboarding, maybe a high speed car or boat. Or just turn the music up really loud. The secret is slowly raise the volume during each song so no one notices right away that the music is blaring. It then becomes sort of a conclusion thats come to after some time, time enough for you to have it loud.

[Nülliflower]

Originally posted by Diles Mavis:

You need to have some fun before you stroke out. An amusement park, maybe the zoo. Skiing or snowboarding, maybe a high speed car or boat. Or just turn the music up really loud. The secret is slowly raise the volume during each song so no one notices right away that the music is blaring. It then becomes sort of a conclusion thats come to after some time, time enough for you to have it loud.

what if having fun is impossible though because your brain isn't releasing enough dopamines or serotonins or whatever so you shan't have fun with things

[Lemur]

Do not--y'know what. If you are tired of what's happening currently, in the life you are living right now, pack your bags, and leave; go no contact.

With what I just said. Do not do that without being absolutely certain you hate your current sitatuion--if you run away and regret it it'll cause more pain.

To be absolutely clear--the previous comment is not endorsing any actions, it's merely commentating on your options; do not do as I just said, if you are a teenager. I assume right now, that you are a young adult.[/b]

[Vince ✟]

You should know something.


We are all messed up somehow. Everyone has something broken in their minds and bodies, be it homicidal tendencies we dont act out or tell others about, suicidal tendencies we do and never tell of, perversions of all sorts, or otherwise. Never feel like you are wrong because of your brokenness. The world should feel broken and unjust. It should feel depressing and like we are missing something. It is. We are. I'm not gonna preach to ya, but just rest easy knowing those feelings do not make you who you are, nor do they decide your future. You are created for a purpose, and are immensely loved. Just rest easy friend and know this is normal.

[Vexkoh]

Originally posted by Thermal Lance:

Given the closing statement, I'm not surprised you feel lonely. Who would want that kind of attitude around?

Given my experiences with other people it became very easy to feel bitterness towards others. Call it cynicism or misanthropy if you will.

[Andros]

Originally posted by Vexkoh:

I hate living and my parents think I have manic depression and might want to change the meds I'm already taking. Honestly they're oblivious to the real me, nobody knows the real me. This place never changes; I know that life is the problem, life is a prison, but I can't express that without being labeled some pessimistic teenager. I'm extremely lonely to the point of being "socially impaired" but I honestly couldn't give a ♥♥♥♥. I can't trust people anymore, if I can't have full control over them to the point of no uncertainty than why bother. They want me to communicate more because they sense "something's changed" but nothing's changed. Why should I communicate to probably become involuntarily committed. Life is already a prison enough. Why should I tell people whether my parents, psychiatrist, or therapist that I'm sexually perverted, suicidal, and homicidal and plan on being dead in about four years. Sounds like an easy way to get locked up to me. But anyway if you actually read this entire ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ rant then congratulations you can reply if you want or just go on with hedonistic motivations like typical human ♥♥♥♥.

Well you can do two things, have a positive outlook on life or a negative outlook on life, it’s you’re choice sounds like you’ve made your decision already.

[TGC> The Games Collector]

Sounds like normal teenager years.

[Nülliflower]

Originally posted by TGC> The Games Collector:

Sounds like normal teenager years.

i thought teenagers were supposed to be getting high and setting carpets on fire in their parents basement

[Lemur]

Originally posted by MD:

Never feel like you are wrong because of your brokenness. The world should feel broken and unjust...they do not decide your future...You are created for a purpose, and are immensely loved. Just rest easy friend and know this is normal.

[bisder]

Originally posted by Nülliflower:

Originally posted by Diles Mavis:

You need to have some fun before you stroke out. An amusement park, maybe the zoo. Skiing or snowboarding, maybe a high speed car or boat. Or just turn the music up really loud. The secret is slowly raise the volume during each song so no one notices right away that the music is blaring. It then becomes sort of a conclusion thats come to after some time, time enough for you to have it loud.

what if having fun is impossible though because your brain isn't releasing enough dopamines or serotonins or whatever so you shan't have fun with things

well then i guess im sorry for the bad advice

[Dracoco OwO]

Can't say it isn't a little relatable but i don't take meds and don't intend to. But i am much older too. No point in telling anyone anything in my familly they never tried to find out, it's their problem not mine.

[Nülliflower]

Originally posted by leamuyre:

Originally posted by MD:

Never feel like you are wrong because of your brokenness. The world should feel broken and unjust...they do not decide your future...You are created for a purpose, and are immensely loved. Just rest easy friend and know this is normal.

so feeling like ♥♥♥♥ is supposed to be normal huh, makes me wonder why i even still bother with this world

[Lemur]

Originally posted by Nülliflower:

so feeling like ♥♥♥♥ is supposed to be normal huh

Yes, indeed it is. Not that it's good.

Bad times are followed by good times. Crap happens. In order to feel happy takes time, you need to push yourself into a direction your happy with.