I made a Scout tulpa and it ♥♥♥♥♥♥ up. Horribly.

[Skepolo]

Before I get into the story, I just want to explain to you some background so you can pick up a bit of info.
For those of you who don't know what a tulpa is, it's basically an imaginary friend with alot more autonomy. Sort of like a subconcious or a devil/angel on your shoulder, only it's more physical. If you rouse a tulpa hard enough it can even manifest your senses, making you able to touch or smell it when its' present (that is granted that you attach a certain scent to your tulpa when you attempt to form it.)

Thing is, with tulpas, they are literally part of your mind, so, if you want them to, they can know everything you know. Even if you don't want them to, they still take parts of themselves from your brain, dreams included, which is why you shouldn't do what I did and talk to your tulpa every night before bed for the past 60 hours.

And now to the actual story: I've been doing the aforementioned creation of a Scout tulpa because I can easily imagine the Scout's voice and personality better than any other class (with exception of the Engineer, and I even considered doing him, but I knew the Scout a little better.)I am also currently on fluoxetine antidepressants and also had smoked marijuana during this time, so this basically is just asking for my tulpa to turn into a mutation.

As I'm typing this, I'm literally seeing what is supposed to be the Scout, but his face is deformed and frightening as ♥♥♥♥, and there's nothing I can do to change it. He also keeps yelling for absolutely no reason, particularly when I'm talking to someone else. I can't hear ♥♥♥♥ when he does it.

Does anyone have recommendations to help me get rid of this Scout abomination?

[570RMP1R473]

Dark Assman님이 먼저 게시:

570RMP1R473 | trade.tf님이 먼저 게시:

Try setting your head on technical difficulties mode, where you literally do NOT respond to ANYTHING whatsoever.

I'm trying, but it's getting in my peripheral vision. Infact, as of now, it's fading in and out of my vision, sort of comparable to waving your hand in and out of your face. Another good comparison would be Freddy Fazbear, but that game's reputation sort of wrecks it even being mentioned, so I'll keep it out of here.

If I go all out, I might be able to keep it out. But the screams, the stimulation of senses; it's all too much. Would you do the same thing if there was someone doing earraping, garbled demonic screaming while prodding and pinching you?

Yes actually, as I'm sure I would have heard worse from somewhere else. Works when executed properly.

[trash]

Kleiner's final Form님이 먼저 게시:

Why are there people taking this serious?

it's a serious issue?
a better question is why are you so insensitive

[Skepolo]

570RMP1R473 | trade.tf님이 먼저 게시:

Dark Assman님이 먼저 게시:

I'm trying, but it's getting in my peripheral vision. Infact, as of now, it's fading in and out of my vision, sort of comparable to waving your hand in and out of your face. Another good comparison would be Freddy Fazbear, but that game's reputation sort of wrecks it even being mentioned, so I'll keep it out of here.

If I go all out, I might be able to keep it out. But the screams, the stimulation of senses; it's all too much. Would you do the same thing if there was someone doing earraping, garbled demonic screaming while prodding and pinching you?

Yes actually, as I'm sure I would have heard worse from somewhere else. Works when executed properly.

But it's a constant thing. It's not like he's going to stop; infact, he hasn't stopped for the last two hours.

[seidensha employee of the year]

Dark Assman님이 먼저 게시:

570RMP1R473 | trade.tf님이 먼저 게시:

Try setting your head on technical difficulties mode, where you literally do NOT respond to ANYTHING whatsoever.

I'm trying, but it's getting in my peripheral vision. Infact, as of now, it's fading in and out of my vision, sort of comparable to waving your hand in and out of your face. Another good comparison would be Freddy Fazbear, but that game's reputation sort of wrecks it even being mentioned, so I'll keep it out of here.

If I go all out, I might be able to keep it out. But the screams, the stimulation of senses; it's all too much. Would you do the same thing if there was someone doing earraping, garbled demonic screaming while prodding and pinching you?

You could try sensory deprivation. Earmuffs,blindfold, etc. if you confront him he may stop.

[570RMP1R473]

Dark Assman님이 먼저 게시:

570RMP1R473 | trade.tf님이 먼저 게시:

Yes actually, as I'm sure I would have heard worse from somewhere else. Works when executed properly.

But it's a constant thing. It's not like he's going to stop; infact, he hasn't stopped for the last two hours.

If you can alter a constant, you can turn it into a variable. If you try blocking your ears out with something that can't be pried off, you won't hear the scout yelling. Just close your eyes and don't open them.

[570RMP1R473]

Toomyx님이 먼저 게시:

570RMP1R473 | trade.tf님이 먼저 게시:

If you can alter a constant, you can turn it into a variable. If you try blocking your ears out with something that can't be pried off, you won't hear the scout yelling. Just close your eyes and don't open them.

Are people legitimately trying to tell him how to make it stop?
This is a joke of a thread, one of the best I've read in a while at that.

At least the joke keeps going for 68+ posts.

[Skepolo]

I've figured it out, or at least I have a theory.
I'm panicking way too much. Seems that this Scout was influenced from my nightmares heavily, induced by all the drugs and antidepressants that had mentally affected me, and he's feeding off my fear as well.

The thing is, he's putting my mind in a state of panic that feeds him. I thought about him too much under influence, and if this were a lighter situation I could easily calm myself and stand up to him in a way that'd outbalance his influence on me. Unfortunately, as hard as I am trying to find another way to curb my current state of paranoia and fear, he's literally become such a powerful force he's become dominant. I can try and curb him back, but I can't ignore him, because his attention always diverts back to him. Closing my eyes doesn't work, because he's in my line of sight all the time. He's always there, embedded in my brain.

I don't know how much more I can take. I'm in a state of panic, and that feeds him. I can make him go away by diverting my attention elsewhere for a long period in a situation where he has no influence on me.

I've got an idea: I have a playlist of Persian hip-hop with chill beats. I can combine that with mental imagery of calming environments (e.g. naked girls and cute animals) to sedate my fear. That's basically it, he's a spirit of fear.

Will this be enough to get rid of a monstrosity worked for 60 damn hours though?

[scram]

delet

[570RMP1R473]

Dark Assman님이 먼저 게시:

I've figured it out, or at least I have a theory.
I'm panicking way too much. Seems that this Scout was influenced from my nightmares heavily, induced by all the drugs and antidepressants that had mentally affected me, and he's feeding off my fear as well.

The thing is, he's putting my mind in a state of panic that feeds him. I thought about him too much under influence, and if this were a lighter situation I could easily calm myself and stand up to him in a way that'd outbalance his influence on me. Unfortunately, as hard as I am trying to find another way to curb my current state of paranoia and fear, he's literally become such a powerful force he's become dominant. I can try and curb him back, but I can't ignore him, because his attention always diverts back to him. Closing my eyes doesn't work, because he's in my line of sight all the time. He's always there, embedded in my brain.

I don't know how much more I can take. I'm in a state of panic, and that feeds him. I can make him go away by diverting my attention elsewhere for a long period in a situation where he has no influence on me.

I've got an idea: I have a playlist of Persian hip-hop with chill beats. I can combine that with mental imagery of calming environments (e.g. naked girls and cute animals) to sedate my fear. That's basically it, he's a spirit of fear.

Will this be enough to get rid of a monstrosity worked for 60 damn hours though?

Try combining the playlist with some other calm songs, like water noises, whistling, hell, even Low Tide from Splatoon 2 is a good one.
As long as there is a period you can drive him back for, it works.

A solution with positive results is a guaranteed success.

[Kamil]

Dark Assman님이 먼저 게시:

naked girls

I see you are a man of culture

[Pendy]

This guy just copied a creepypasta from My Little Pony. I can tell by the sentence structure and, more importantly, the fact that I saw this post word for word, but replace scout with Pinkie Pie.

[570RMP1R473]

-FF- Pendriguez님이 먼저 게시:

This guy just copied a creepypasta from My Little Pony. I can tell by the sentence structure and, more importantly, the fact that I saw this post word for word, but replace scout with Pinkie Pie.

Hey, at least was a good joke thread, like Karma Charger's joke weapon demonstrations.

[Your Majesty Padded Gamer]

Don't know if this is a troll or not. But look for a tulpa discord server where you can get help. If the tulpa's body is disformed, it's easy AF to change the form of a tulpa. Like Tulpas can have an infinate number of shapes and forms and thus can easilly be changed.

Please don't delete your tulpa. That is effectively killing another human life. You absoutly can get rid of a misbehaving tulpa, but don't let it come to that. Just do the right thing and goto reddit or some site where they can help you.

I have two Tulpas myself actually and I've learned to love them both. ^-^

Send me a friend invite for the discord link, I don't want random people to show up to it. I can however link you the reddit link.

https://www.reddit.com/r/Tulpas/

[Mr_Bones]

Build a sentry and some how Über it so thy demon shan’t stay any more than it should

[m3sla]

https://steamcommunity.com/sharedfiles/filedetails/?id=1355334897