Some time ago when I was about 18yo (male), I was masturbating in my room, then while I was doing it, my head started popping images from my mother doing what is not supposed to happen. I did fight it back cus Ik it's definitely wrong, but the more I tried the more it seemed to get stronger, until the point I found it arousing, not because I wanted to do it with my mother no, but because it's wrong and taboo. Making it clear that I'm definitely not attracted to any family member. It happened two or three times, then I was getting so distressed about it that I started having nightmares about it happening. The way I found to fight it back was to cut pornography and stop masturbating for a while. It solved the problem until now, but the reason I'm so mad is that why did it happen to me? Am I a sex pervert or a monster?

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