I have been struggling with a problem that I have been keeping to myself for some time. I have been faking intimacy with my wife because all I can think about is playing Dota and perfecting my strategies with certain heroes. I find myself daydreaming during intimate moments with my wife, visualizing the perfect blink-stun combo with Queen of Pain, or the precise moment to unleash a Sun Strike with Invoker. My mind races with different tactics and strategies, and I struggle to focus on the present moment.

In an effort to conceal my preoccupation, I have been faking physical and emotional engagement during intimate moments with my wife. I'll put on a facade of pleasure, making noise and movements that I think would convince her that I'm fully invested in the moment. I'm aware that this is not fair to her and it's causing strain in our relationship, but I can't help it, the urge to play Dota is too strong.