hi I am drinking my pain and my sorrow away and i've been in two major motorcycle accidents nearly died twice while going 220 down the highway broken cooler bone and nearly broken four arm i dont I Dont Know how im still alive i should be died in the ground yet im not tell me god why do you so and im suicidal at the 98% pont about to take the pill and then shoot my self. I'm single and straight and wanting to die even more now but god wont let me die and i wish he would just let it happen to me now my life is never going to get any better never not at any point