XIII
Death
 
 
ᅚᅚᅚᅚᅚᅚ I wish people a happy birthday. That's about it.

If I've been offline for over a month as you read this, I might have died.
ᅚᅚᅚᅚᅚᅚᅚᅚᅚᅚᅚ ♪ November of 2020 ♪
Currently Offline
…because I'm, I'm tired of everything, I'm tired of pushing myself every day. I'm tired of getting up every night, just, not even feeling like I slept – because I haven't – I get, like, four hours of sleep a night, and that's it. I'm always up till, like, four in the afternoon, wake up at nine the next night – that night, rather. Rinse and repeat.

Tired…

Tired of breathing; I'm tired of going to a dead-end job. I'm tired of putting all this effort into videos that aren't going anywhere. I'm tired of animating in general – I don't want to do it anymore. I'm tired of my body. I'm tired of food.

Tired of everybody.

I don't want to deal with another human again – alive, anyway. I'm tired of having to watch what I post on social media. Tired of the same old routine. I'm tired of feeling like I'm screaming on the inside and nobody within a million miles can hear me scream – that's what it feels like, every day. I'm tired of having to live as somebody I'm not. Tired of being nice. Tired of beer.

Tired of everything.

Tired of everything but my girls – that's really it.
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Steam community moderation is a joke.

Just a year or two ago it was almost impossible to see hordes of spam bots running around, but now Steam looks like a 10 year old entry on some Wordpress blog that nobody cares about.
Every day you can see multiple newly-created bots descending on profiles and screenshots with never-ending "hey, send me a friend request, I have something for you" or "we want you on our team, we will pay you salary, add our team leader". How is this a moderation?

And to make it a total joke, the Steam community moderation is the strictest it has ever been at the moment. You can't say bad words, because this is a Christian platform, so now not only your fresh comments, but also all those left 10 years ago will have those bad words turned into "♥♥♥". Details like Last Online time and game activity have been made non-public on the entire platform for no apparent reason. Groups are getting removed left and right. People have their avatars and nicknames banned all the time, and their profile information wiped out for anything not even remotely offensive. For example:
1. A picture of a drawn woman's clothed body as an avatar;
2. A picture of a drawn woman in a military uniform as an avatar;
3. Lyrics "das leben will gewonnen sein" ("life will be won") from a paratrooper song as a nickname;
4. Just pretty much any nickname, really. [i.imgur.com]

I guess each Steam user should be thankful that we have so many brave moderators protecting us from these horrors. Not from tons of spam and phishing links that get thrown around the community every day.

At this point, what are you even moderating? I remove spam from my profile and screenshots manually, with my own hands, every day. You have an entire back-end to yourself. You are a joke, and what you're doing is pathetic.

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Iku Nagae 11 minutes ago 
huh? okay. I am confuse.
Birthdere Bunday 2 hours ago 
Consistency. Thank.
Maru 3 hours ago 
fine, i wont check your profile anymore...
XIII 6 hours ago 
Wow, someone named "Maru" is stalking one of my friends! I've got to do something about it.
Maru 9 hours ago 
wtfrick @minge thats racist
Minge Nov 26 @ 12:53am 
Finally black.