at what age did you lose innocence?

[Стипо Миставасис]

at what age did you search for "boobs" on the google

[Apollo702]

Mine was weird!

It was between 3 to 5.

Those who know me, know that I was born with freak high levels of testosterone- as high as pro bodybuilders and it started showing early. Really early.

But on the other hand...

My parents were utterly uptight, There was the whole religious private school nonsense... so for a number of years it was more of a guilty thing.

So maybe it would have been around 3rd grade when there was no internet(the 70s) and they did have National Geographics with naked tribal people in the classroom. Never mind that in my layman's opinion the religious nutjob of a teacher was both batsh*t insane and on some sort of meth. The religious insanity that we had pounded into us was off the charts- and even at that age a bunch of it just didn't sit right. No, other things were pulling some of us away.

So in my whacky case probably 3rd grade. It wasn't until high school that I actually figured out the part about actually doing it for real with a girl though. Some of those years in between sucked with a preposterous sex drive and zero ability to actually have it.

[Fumo Bnnuy n Frends]

around 10-11 when i had a joke app and people kept posting porn on the video section.

[Funky Monk]

I don’t even know, it was early on

[Ms Peaches]

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Bro I 100% feel this. Puberty was absolute agony. My family was super conservative and my f*ther was still alive at the time. My sex drive was so intense at such an early age and still is but back then there was no way to relieve it. My family was hyper conservative too and we only got "just don't have sex" in school. it was only after I was 18 that I secretly started looking at naughty online stuff.

the way people treat maturity as some kind of magical line that you cross at the age of 18 is absolutely insane.

[captainwiseass]

I'm so old, my first porn search was on Yahoo.

[captainwiseass]

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*Deckard Cane walks in the room* "Stay awhile and listen... "

Back in the day we had national geographic and Fashion TV to see boobs.

And scrambled Cinemax. Could be a boob, could be the inside of an elbow, but I'm fapping to it no matter what.

[Apollo702]

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Bro I 100% feel this. Puberty was absolute agony. My family was super conservative and my f*ther was still alive at the time. My sex drive was so intense at such an early age and still is but back then there was no way to relieve it. My family was hyper conservative too and we only got "just don't have sex" in school. it was only after I was 18 that I secretly started looking at naughty online stuff.

the way people treat maturity as some kind of magical line that you cross at the age of 18 is absolutely insane.

It makes one wonder just how many people went through some version of this?

How many people thought that it was "just them?"

[Ms Peaches]

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Yeah. Like in my case I couldn't really talk about it to my family because of how conservative they were. People would be like "yeah we get it will all the raging hormones" and I wanted to say "no you don't understand it feels like my body is screaming"

No one would believe me so I just had to do what I could to endure all of the bs

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I was 13 when i lost my virginity.

[Hanzo The Rain]

I think it was some slasher movies that had a lot of topless scenes when I was 12 I think. I used to rely on movies from either cable TV or rental stores parents got because finding a boob material wasn’t easy to get a hand on. It was like trying to find a treasure.

[emcarlsen (she/her)]

3, when my parents started coercing my gender identity.

[Apollo702]

Publicado originalmente por Ms Peaches:

Yeah. Like in my case I couldn't really talk about it to my family because of how conservative they were. People would be like "yeah we get it will all the raging hormones" and I wanted to say "no you don't understand it feels like my body is screaming"

No one would believe me so I just had to do what I could to endure all of the bs

I hear you there.

However, I did benefit in some ways:

• They taught me to tune people out when they are full of it. This includes teachers, pastors, doctors, family... or any other person spouting out a bunch of bunk.
  
  
• To this day I ignore people who jump up and down, scream and cry. threaten, spazz out... Unless they do something tangible it's all bluster. Moving right along...
  
  
• I learned to stop talking about certain things to people incapable of listening to reason. Sometimes if it's egregious enough I just cut them off cold.
  
  
• When I finally was able to start landing girls we did learn the art and science of sneaking around and bypassing the attempted roadblocks. It was like playing running back. Eventually, no matter how the defense lined up and how many times I got tackled, eventually the ball was crossing the end zone.

[Ms Peaches]

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On the bright side my f*ther is finally dead and my mom is much more open now. So now I'm finally embracing being myself. It's really liberating to finally express how I actually feel with at least one of my family members

[Apollo702]

MS Peaches:

My experience was(and rightfully should still be) everything was cranked to 11. It wasn't just sexual.

If things weren't exaggerated or the biggest, the best, the most... it was a colossal letdown. I was cheated.

Was it everything? Or just the sexual aspect?

[Ms Peaches]

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idk if I can talk about it here honestly. Without going into detail my early childhood played a big role in how I am today. Most of my memories surrounding that time are missing and I have ptsd because of what happened. It's affected me all my life and how I interact with others. Growing up was like a living hell. Disassociation was a tool for survival and my mind was on guard all the time.

I'm in therapy now and I'm slowly learning to put the proverbial knife.