I suck at videogames.

[Azami]

It seems like no matter how much time I put in a game I still just suck. And no I'm not being negative about myself but more of a realization. When I was young, I used to think that if I just put in the time to playing a game I would "eventually" become good at the game. But I'm starting to realize that most of the time that I played videogames, I was very passive in the way I played.

By passive, I mean I would just keep trying and trying and never really think on how to improve or what went wrong. Not sure if it's because I'm stupid (honestly I probably am) or I just tend to let my ego get in the way thinking I can just learn things my way without outside help.

In another steam account I have 900 hours on CSGO but I only managed to play up to gold nova 4. And I played that game for 3-4 years. On this account I have 1000 hours on tekken and played for 3 years but I only managed to reach red rank.

Now did I have fun? Yes in terms of competitive play but no matter how much I play, it literally doesn't seem enough and it even affects which players I fight against because nowadays most games have SBMM. Winning all the time is boring because I keep getting paired with easy opponents. Losing all the time sucks too because I keep playing against players that are literally leagues above me.

[Shiro♌]

Publicado originalmente por Jericho:

Publicado originalmente por Shiro♌:

You might lack the experiences to base the improvement on.

Most of us FPS veterans who're in the top ~30% or even better do have years of experiences, you know?
And those experiences do vary, there were numerous videogames that we've used to play to for fun.. And in the long run have improved nontheless, like Quake III Arena's Massacre Freezer and other instagib servers (perfect for training precision and reflexes), years in Call of Duty titles (perfect for training game sense and in a way raw aim, spray control to a certain extent, as well as reflexes), and so much more..

That alone is, in total, a question of more than just three or four years, but literally almost half of an entire life; A question of more than fifteen years.

Now, did it mean I have lost opportunities to do better in my life?
Not in the slightest, as those were all the elementary and early highschool years when I haven't had anything going on, and the stuff that was going on was already taken care of beforehand, furthermore boosting my mood and motivating me to do better in videogames.
You know, you're not gonna do good in competitive videogames if you overthink stuff a lot.. And I do partly agree with that.
The fact is, what does bother you in real life does transfer over to the videogame and ruins your experiences - Be it to cause you to be less focused, easy to trigger, or whatever else.. That's just how it is.
On the other hand, if you're doing just perfectly in real life, then you're ready to give videogames your all and enjoy them more than those who're subconsciously bothered by their real lives.

Honestly, I think you're right. Now mind you I suffer from videogame addiction (not official diagnosis but Im pretty sure I have it) and I think videogames is more like a drug than anything. I used to quit videogames but of course life has its way of ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ me over and I end up going back to gaming and never improving on how to balance it with life.

Also, about the experience part, I've been playing FPS games since I was a kid. I still remember fond memories of playing call of duty for the Wii and I don't want to toot my horn but i was genuinely good at the game for that console but then when I switched to ps3 and then to pc i just ended up sucking. The only difference is that I have more hours on ps3 and pc compared to my wii days. And yes I know fps games on a wii? those were the days lolllll.

If you feel truly addicted, you should do something about it before it gets even worse.. Or you can keep it the way it is while focusing on keeping it that way without proceeding any further, as that could bring in some negative consequences into your life, and that's never worth it.
There's nothing wrong with getting yourself back to gaming.. Even if it's just to read some visual novels instead of picking up a book in real life.
They do all have their own charm that ain't present in real life.. At least for the time being. The technology isn't advanced enough for that, and so I won't derail it with my thoughts any more.

And, well, then that might be the sole cause - You adapting to PS3, and so in order to improve, you may wanna try to brush up your dance moves on PC, see if you can handle it just as well as back in the day, if not even better.
That alone shall awaken some confidence within yourself if you dedicate yourself enough towards that task.. Though, real life before videogames, if possible.
We're no longer in our childhoods, are we.. And so our priorities are elsewhere.
Performing well in videogames is just a bonus, and nothing else.

[Netaris]

Publicado originalmente por Jericho:

Honestly, it's probably a cope issue at this point. That or both.

Ah ah, don't mind, I just wanted to say it one time, nothing personal. ^^

[Birds]

games aren't there for people who are physically adept. there's sports for that.

they're there for people who know how to cheat them, obviously.

thus we have designed all our games to accomodate this aspect of people's engagement with our games.

[76561198356019466]

To say I suck at gaming would be an insult to sucking, but I love them, so I persevere.