How I ruined my friend circle.

[Akko Chan]

So I had a pretty nice crew of friends. Let's call them Karen, Sarah, Nathan, James and Amanda. (Not their real names).

Karen was the first to go. Karen and I were friends for a about a year. She and I used to do everything together but she had a problem. She was a pure attention seeker. Karen would go around finding guys to latch onto constantly and often times I would stay over at her college apartment after a night out drinking she would bring men home. Icky.

Karen also was completely focused on herself, she did suffer from mental health problems and I would do my best to support her but as time went on it became a real toll on my own mental health. I began slipping in my studies just like her and I felt our friendship had started to become toxic. So I asked her to meet for a DMC. She refused. 5 times. Each time telling me she didn't want my help or "my type of help".

I got sick of this and I started hanging around with Sarah. Sarah was a total pothead and she had a pretty big friend circle that I was excited to start getting to know. Sarah convinced me to get away from Karen and her toxicity. Because Sarah knew about things Karen had done in the past to other people.

So it took a while, the idea of dropping a friend took me a long time and it was made harder as Karen and I had planned on going on a college trip together. We agreed I would stay on good terms with Karen until the trip was over after that I would drop her.

I had a lot of anger built up and frustration at this point. I had been upset with Karen for a couple of weeks and i couldn't hold it together and before the trip I lashed out at Karen telling her how I really felt. She didn't take it well. A few days later we flew out on our trip and we had an unspoken agreement to tolerate each other while we were out there. It wasn't too bad. But I had to commit to cutting ties with Karen.

When i returned after the trip my friendship with Sarah really took off we went on drives in my car together, Amanda and Nathan were there and the four of us hung out a lot. Not so much James, he stuck to the sidelines.

As time went on Sarah and I became really close. We often would share stories about our life and she and I would be there for emotional support.

On the other side Amanda and I also became close and one day we had an incident... We got a little too close and Amanda had a boyfriend. One night I stayed over at Amandas and we kissed. Twice in the evening and two times in the morning before i left. Yikes. We were adult about it though and agreed to take a step back with our friendship as it clearly was going in a dangerous direction all Gucci.

As time went on things seemed fine, Sarah and I still hung out loads and we went out for Halloween with the gang of us all (minus karen). Halloween wasn't good for me, I broke down into tears out of stress because I was still behind in college work.

My friends still had my back thank god. And i felt a lot better afterwards. But as time went on the next couple of weeks things started going weird. Sarah started getting stressed about her course in college. We all had her back and did what we could, Sarah also suffered from depression so it wasn't a good situation. I also hadn't fully recovered from my friendship with Karen and i realised I began exhibiting signs of depression too. Likely because as it turned out Karen, Sarah and Amanda all had depression and all of the support I tried to give to all of them, on top of tonne of insecurities I had about my obesity and my general self hatred I had put me in a really bad state.

So the next week Sarah started feeling better thanks to her boyfriend Ryan but she still seemed to have an attitude with me. I was completely stumped. We did everything together and I figured we were both 50/50 giving and taking in our emotional support. Though there were times i felt like I had to push my life into hers because she talked so much about her own life.

Well she was salty and on Friday she tells me that she was feeling miserable and the happiest she has felt lately wasn't spending time with me it was with her other friend Michelle who I never met. She gets on to me saying I'm naive and I need to learn to tougher. She says I don't fully understand her personality yet and I will learn in time. She was mad because I gave Tommy a lift to the train in my car (Tommy is a trans female to male who also had a brief fling with amanda).

We did agree to stop talking to Tommy not because he was trans but because he made Amanda feel uncomfortable as unlike me (who respectfully made distance with amanda after we kissed) Tommy continued to peruse Amanda trying to get her to cheat on her boyfriend.

I don't know if Sarah knew I kissed Amanda. (This is such a mess)

Sarah caught me off guard anyways as I had no idea she felt this way about me. She said I was using her too much for emotional support and I needed to back off. She said she floats from friend to friend never committing too long to one person.

She also had a habit of not only telling me to cut ties to Karen and Tommy but also another person I actually was friends with whose name was Jacinta. Sarah would also remind me of how comfortable she was with cutting ties to anyone she didn't get along with.

I was shocked anyways by how angry she was at me. But assured me things would be fine and she isn't cutting ties with me at all. She just wanted to basically say "we are too good friends so I'm going to not be so close to you anymore".

I in the moment was like "lol ok". Then went home, got drunk. Got happy then got angry then sent her lots of Snapchats telling her I'm sick of my life being controlled and I feel like I'm walking on egg shells afraid to be myself.

This went down really well. Amanda, Sarah and Nathan all left the group chat we were in together and cut ties with me while Tommy also cut ties with me shortly afterwards.

In the DLC you'll learn i also angered my other friend Megan who genuinely was using me as an emotional pillow because literally 90% of the conversations we had together were about Megan and her life. I know it sounds like it's one rule for me and another for Megan but I swear Megan really did just talk about herself. (Oh megan also had ptsd and depression too).I actually did lots of things for Sarah. I gave her car rides all the time, I gave her lifts to college and home again. I gave her lifts to town and I genuinely would sit there and listen to her talk for hours about her life.

So I told off Megan too and said she needs to move on with her life and stop going on about he ex and her injuries from the car accident that happened two years ago all the time and to stop talking about herself 24/7.

That also went well.

So in conclusion I lost: Karen, Sarah, Megan, Amanda, Nathan, Tommy, and possibly James but he's trying to stay out of it.

I've also lost connections to other people who were friends of Sarah and Amanda too. So friends of friends.

[Darkwave Dahlia]

Originally posted by l1z4rdbr34th:

Originally posted by ᛋᚺᚨᚾᛞᛟᚱ:

So Jeffrey would be a great friend?

Wait a minute, I was thinking of mental handicaps...
Nevermind.

So you would say, Jeffrey is was a healty guy?

[GetToTheTop]

This says a lot about our society.

On a more important note you should buy my games

[Chuuya Nakahara]

So wheres the question? Or is this a blog?

[The Rock God]

What game/visual novel is this? Is it on Steam?

[L1qu1dator]

Originally posted by Todd Howard:

This says a lot about our society.

It does, but it's nothing new under the Sun...

[Q-T_3.14.exe]

Originally posted by SMIFFY:

Nobody will read all that

I did, smoko well spent.

[Bykeshgoly]

This reads like a really bad and funny copypasta.

[Vixus]

Holy crap, this is why I isolate myself, no friends, no problem, A-Okay!

[Randy Marsh]

Originally posted by Vixus:

Holy crap, this is why I isolate myself, no friends, no problem, A-Okay!

^ This, I can relate.

[Vixus]

Originally posted by Todd Howard:

This says a lot about our society.

On a more important note you should buy my games

Bring them to Steam then maybe I will

[ʙᴜɴ.ᴇ]

they sound like a bunch of losers if you ask me.

if some pothead waster tried to tell me who I can and can't be friends with I'd tell them to sod off instantly.

and what kind of person drifts from friend to friend and throws so called friends away like an empty wrapper the moment they get tired of them? they were never real friends, real friends don't do that. Be thankful you got rid of those jokers.

[Akko Chan]

Tbh in a stoner too 😂

[Bastila Shan]

Its Stoner bashing time.

[Plastic]

Ok.

[talemore]

Sheldon Cooper: Friends are like toilet paper, It's good to have extra friends just in case.