Please call me stupid, delaying the gratification of video games

[Buttcatcher]

Yeah maybe I'm just being silly and stupid, please call out my mistake and change my point of view, if you beg to differ. But I have this attitude towards video games that I seem to have just recently developed which also coincide with the time I fully joined steam.

I am deliberately delaying the time when I will play video games, like some sort of delayed gratification, not necessarily because I'm short on time - I have all the time in the world, I haven't worked since I got out of the hospital, - but it's because if I play a game, the experience will only be once in a lifetime, because each video game is different, and once you played it and gone thru the cycle of learning the game, having fun at it, exploring it's fluff and crunch stuff, then losing interest, then it's over, that's one less pleasure in the world :(
Even if though there maybe an overhelming amount of upcoming games.

Another analogy i can try to explain it is maybe like potato chips, I don't mind on gratifying myself and gorging on Lay's Potato chips anytime, because there will always be a neverending supply of Lay's brand potato chips in the supermarket. But video games, I've been treating them as each specific title as a single specific brand of potato chips that only one bag was ever produced, and after you eat that single bag, it's gone forever. I think I'm afraid of that loss

The most fun I can have with a video game, is when it's new, and I really have a lot of fun in exploring a game mechanics/content first-hand. This why I mainly I don't bother to read and watch video game previews and reviews anymore.
I want to experience the novelty first-hand in the game by myself, and I hate spoilers of all kinds, even if just game mechanics.

If you check my profile, you will see I have a large backlog of unplayed games, I don't mind buying many of them especially if they are at sale at times like summer sale right now. and it's usually when it's sale when I buy them especially the expensive AAA titles; I think I may be actually stingy and will mostlu often only buy a game if it's on sale.
it's just that i tend to delay playing them, glaring examples there include mass effect, hearts of iron, and the latest series of football manager. Don't get me wrong, I wanna play them, in fact I wanna play them all before i drop dead, it's just that not now, I'll save it for a sadder day :D

Here in lies another issue, if I keep delaying them, how am I gonna play them all in time?

When I was a kid this wasn't an issue with me, - for example when I was 11 my mom bought me a whole box of pirated games for the playstation on Christmas, and by Christmas morning I've booted each one of the them, and inspected them each
I also reseached the concept of delayed gratification, it says delaying short-term pleasure for greater long-term rewards, but i don't think I feel a greater pleasure in whether i play a game next year or two, it will be probably be the same experience, but I still delay them.

If you are having the same issues/experience, it'll be cool to learn about it.
If you think I'm being silly, and wish to call me out, and think I should see my doctor again. Please do beg to differ.

P.S.
Sometimes also, I would rather sleep than play, what a joke , i think I have this false instinct that I'm a vampire, or I'm Endymion, that I can just spend my days sleeping, because i'm not burdened by mortality.
But of course tha't not true, so how the hell am I going to play them all?

[Mio]

Stupid

[O5]

Okay, you are stupid.

[Big Pharma]

Well, just like unique flavors and bands of potato chips, there are always going to be new video games; don't treat it like there's a finite supply.

[bear_1]

Originally posted by Vietcong Charlie (PLA):

Well, just like unique flavors and bands of potato chips, there are always going to be new video games; don't treat it like there's a finite supply.

This. You'll always find the next best thing that will keep you hooked for hours on end.

[𝓒𝑨𝓢𝓢𝓲𝓔]

Originally posted by aggserp4:

Originally posted by Vietcong Charlie (PLA):

Well, just like unique flavors and bands of potato chips, there are always going to be new video games; don't treat it like there's a finite supply.

This. You'll always find the next best thing that will keep you hooked for hours on end.

The problem is that we don’t know when we’re going to find it.

See it as flavours that are only available once in a while but we never know when they’re going to show up.

[Vectif]

I mean, there's some indie games I have that I could've finished within the same day but instead completed over a year and really enjoyed longterm as if they were longer.

[alicerinz]

Okay,here you go.

You're stupid.