I need a shoulder to lean on

[Mel]

I need somewhere to rant and someone to talk to. I can't sleep and I'm just feeling sad. I've been really bad with people (not going into detail) ever since I was a kid and I've been trying to make friends online. Every time I do, they either leave me, forget me, or hate me. I sometimes regret even joining the communities I had joined just because I never want to remember those people. So many people I miss but probably don't miss me so I just want to forget them.. I've been blocked by people who I thought were good friends.. It's kind of sad and I don't know how to express my feelings, don't know what I should do. I kind of just want a hug right now. :/ I hate feeling like this.

[Levi]

引用自 Melly：

引用自 Robin3sk：

I think I've seen you before or are you new to this sub-forum?

I've made one more thread here I'm pretty sure where I was really happy.

Exactly, and i was impressed because I've never seen such enthusiasm.

Sorry to hear about you current dilemma.

[Chuuya Nakahara]

引用自 Mattmoo：

I suppose I’m willing to listen.

Mattmoo with his peacefull heart.

Good human I swear.

[BRM62C]

You can add me if you'd like, i'm down to be a friend if you need one since no one else is offering. We don't really have any games in common though, yet at least. Anyway, I think the reason most people probably stopped being friends with you is because most people online don't like hearing about other people's problems, but i think that if you truly care about someone, why wouldn't you want to help them when they're feeling down? And those same people would turn around and talk the most when they're feeling down or something bad happens to them and expect love, and affection, it doesn't make sense.

[mad respecc]

Then find a shoulder to lean on mate and cry and whatever you want bruv

[rei]

Don't go to therapist, they are not helpful at all sometimes. You need friends to help comforting you. I've help a few depressed peeps on steam before. Im sure some people will help you :)

[Mel]

引用自 Robin3sk：

引用自 Melly：

I've made one more thread here I'm pretty sure where I was really happy.

Exactly, and i was impressed because I've never seen such enthusiasm.

Sorry to hear about you current dilemma.

:yinyangflip:

I mean, it was actually one of the best moments in my life so far. I never thought I could do it and I did it.. ^^ c:

引用自 Brandon：

You can add me if you'd like, i'm down to be a friend if you need one since no one else is offering. We don't really have any games in common though, yet at least. Anyway, I think the reason most people probably stopped being friends with you is because most people online don't like hearing about other people's problems, but i think that if you truly care about someone, why wouldn't you want to help them when they're feeling down? And those same people would turn around and talk the most when they're feeling down or something bad happens to them and expect love, and affection, it doesn't make sense.

I don't normally talk about my problems unless they ask. I just want to be happy and have fun with them. Normally I only say the good things that happen. I've been told that I'm really lucky for living how I do by friends that I haven't told anything and it's kind of annoying because they don't know what I've been through.

引用自 BAT EMPEROR OF EGYPT：

Hmm I didn't know people talk about this sort of thing here...interesting..

Anyways omnomnomnom I am your friend. I also am alone with few friends. All my friends are either dead or backstabbed me (lol sad I know). Or, they're alive and are stupid and not people I want to be around.

Don't feel bad eliminating dumbies from your life. It's way better to be alone than with stupid people. Literally. But anyways you are not alone if you want to add me. I will tell you my ideas on how jaguars should be rideable taxis...and how Trix cereal isn't as good as it used to be.

Didn't know anywhere else to post it and since this is off topic, I thought it'd be an okay place to post it.

引用自 kei：

Don't go to therapist, they are not helpful at all sometimes. You need friends to help comforting you. I've help a few depressed peeps on steam before. Im sure some people will help you :)

I guess :L I don't know, I'll get over it either way eventually.

[Mivo]

引用自 Melly：

I mean, I've just never found anything to like about myself. I'm not really good at anything, if anything, I'd be less than mediocre at anything. :/

So, start there! I think you write fairly well and you express how you feel well also. Not everyone is capable of that. That's already one thing to like, and I don't even know you!

[Mel]

引用自 Mivo：

引用自 Melly：

I mean, I've just never found anything to like about myself. I'm not really good at anything, if anything, I'd be less than mediocre at anything. :/

So, start there! I think you write fairly well and you express how you feel well also. Not everyone is capable of that. That's already one thing to like, and I don't even know you!

I don't like what I write

[mr.who? WcD]

Well this ones mine so you cant have it

[JJ, Professional Fool]

Emotions are hard.

[=WL= LazyLizard5780]

I feel that too. You can add me.

[IohanniS]

引用自 Melly：

I need somewhere to rant and someone to talk to. I can't sleep and I'm just feeling sad. I've been really bad with people (not going into detail) ever since I was a kid and I've been trying to make friends online. Every time I do, they either leave me, forget me, or hate me. I sometimes regret even joining the communities I had joined just because I never want to remember those people. So many people I miss but probably don't miss me so I just want to forget them.. I've been blocked by people who I thought were good friends.. It's kind of sad and I don't know how to express my feelings, don't know what I should do. I kind of just want a hug right now. :/ I hate feeling like this.

[Xautos]

引用自 Melly：

I need somewhere to rant and someone to talk to. I can't sleep and I'm just feeling sad. I've been really bad with people (not going into detail) ever since I was a kid and I've been trying to make friends online. Every time I do, they either leave me, forget me, or hate me. I sometimes regret even joining the communities I had joined just because I never want to remember those people. So many people I miss but probably don't miss me so I just want to forget them.. I've been blocked by people who I thought were good friends.. It's kind of sad and I don't know how to express my feelings, don't know what I should do. I kind of just want a hug right now. :/ I hate feeling like this.

Why should any of that matter to you? internet "friends" are not something you should be chasing anyway and neither should you put any emphasis on it either.

[The FBI]

@Xautos, you make a really strong point. Internet friends aren't real friends, but I like having them for many reasons. Internet friends won't judge you for who you really are, because they don't personally know you. They also probably play similar games as you. But, they are not people you should get close to, because they are shallow people behind computers.

@Melly, don't give up on making friends anywhere. If you meet someone you are interested in, talk to them, and don't be shy. Come out of your shell and open up. You can also use personal experiences or problems to relate with someone. Be yourself, and don't let someone's opinion define your character.

Feel free to add me :)

[Mel]

引用自 Xautos：

引用自 Melly：

I need somewhere to rant and someone to talk to. I can't sleep and I'm just feeling sad. I've been really bad with people (not going into detail) ever since I was a kid and I've been trying to make friends online. Every time I do, they either leave me, forget me, or hate me. I sometimes regret even joining the communities I had joined just because I never want to remember those people. So many people I miss but probably don't miss me so I just want to forget them.. I've been blocked by people who I thought were good friends.. It's kind of sad and I don't know how to express my feelings, don't know what I should do. I kind of just want a hug right now. :/ I hate feeling like this.

Why should any of that matter to you? internet "friends" are not something you should be chasing anyway and neither should you put any emphasis on it either.

When did I say I was ever chasing internet friends? I just said it made me unhappy when they leave from being my friends. Most of the time they leave because they don't play the same game anymore and forget about me, don't like me because I didn't agree with them or something, or just don't care enough to actually talk to me.
There's nothing wrong with making friends nor getting close with another person online, it's just kind of sad when they push you away, it's the same in real life when my group just split apart. Nobody really talks to anybody and we're not really in the same group anymore.

It's not fun when you feel lonely because everyone just left both irl and online. It's also not nice to feel that you want to forget the people you've met.

引用自 Thediceduck：

@Xautos, you make a really strong point. Internet friends aren't real friends, but I like having them for many reasons. Internet friends won't judge you for who you really are, because they don't personally know you. They also probably play similar games as you. But, they are not people you should get close to, because they are shallow people behind computers.

@Melly, don't give up on making friends anywhere. If you meet someone you are interested in, talk to them, and don't be shy. Come out of your shell and open up. You can also use personal experiences or problems to relate with someone. Be yourself, and don't let someone's opinion define your character.

Feel free to add me :)

I disagree. People are anything you make them out to be, whether you decide to label them or not. If I label someone as a friend and they weren't a real friend, then were they a friend at all?
People on the Internet can judge you all the time, wether you like it or not, they're just the ones that decide to say it to you or not.

I don't care about what you said either about opening up, do you know how many times I've heard that? Do you know how many times it actually mattered? Not opening up basically is my character, I've been like this before even going to school. My teachers thought I couldn't/didn't know how to talk. It's also really annoying to talk about problems to someone who probably doesn't care, hence why I didn't message someone personally and I am here. It's annoying. I'm not looking for friends, I'm just wanting to forget the people I considered as friends because whenever I think about them, it just feels unpleasant.

Also, you basically just called everyone online shallow, even yourself.