my feelings after playing ddlc [spoilers]

[Sammy 不安]

i think its about time i talk about how this game has affected me after playing it. dont care if anyone reads this or whatever, i just need to get my feelings off my chest. feel free to post your own feelings in the comments.
so, to put it bluntly, it hit me really, really hard. like more than anything that has ever made me feel anything. yuris death touched me in a way i can explain. all i can say is that i felt really weird after it happened, like nothing ive ever felt before. i know this sounds really dumb but trust me, it hurt.
this game has brought out emotions in me ive never felt in my life, that of extreme sadness and anxiety, and its gotten too a point where ive considered seeing someone just to talk about these feelings that this game had drawn out of me. for most of my life ive though ive had some form of anxiety, weather it be normal anxiety, social anxiety, or just incredibly low self confidence, but this game has bought out some deep ♥♥♥♥ in me like nothing else.
before playing the game i had a rough idea of what i was getting into, like a knew sayori dies and had a feeling that yuri would die too, as while playing i had a friend telling we that a "good part" was coming up before yuris death (her death being the part he was refering too as he knew i liked yuri).
even though i had an idea of what i was in for before i started it still hit pretty hard and i wast sure why, after completing the game i just felt... lost, sad and was unsure why. i felt like an idiot that a game such as this had brought out such deep feelings that i had never experienced in my life up until this point (im 17 btw, nearly 18)
i know ive probably just been rambling and rehashing the same points over and over but i just dont know how to express these feelings. i really dont know...
i dont know what else to say really, im just... sad, i guess. i think the reason yuris death hit me so hard is becuase we have so much in common. as i mentioned im fairly certain i have some form of anxiety or something similar. i really struggle to talk to others i dont know, and im probably the biggest introvert i know, in a lot of cases im happiest locked in my room on my pc, and if i could, i would probably stay here all day, every day, which many would think is sad, but its just where i feel most comfortable ya know?
ok i think ive gotten everything off my chest, idk any more.
thanks to anyone who read though my sad and depressed ramblings, and im sorry if i wasted your time or whatever, sorry
see ya...

[VeeJay]

It's ok. I felt similar while I was playing the game. I went in blind, knowing only that it was a horror game of some type. Sayori's depression talk really wore down on me. I've been struggling with depression for years. I wanted to walk away and have a good cry. And then she committed suicide and I wanted to have a panic attack. I suppressed it and kept going, finishing the game in the next few hours. I went to bed that night and that's right about the time I couldn't suppress it anymore. I woke up sobbing. I couldn't sleep. Worse yet, I had to work an 11 hour shift early in the morning. I had several panic attacks at work, really derailing any productivity. It felt cathartic in a way though. This game helped me confront a lot of emotional baggage I've been dealing with in a surprisingly healthy way. So yeah, share what you felt. It's important to. If you need to talk to someone, reach out.

Thanks for sharing this. Be safe.

[Sammy 不安]

Originally posted by Vampire-Jekyll:

It's ok. I felt similar while I was playing the game. I went in blind, knowing only that it was a horror game of some type. Sayori's depression talk really wore down on me. I've been struggling with depression for years. I wanted to walk away and have a good cry. And then she committed suicide and I wanted to have a panic attack. I suppressed it and kept going, finishing the game in the next few hours. I went to bed that night and that's right about the time I couldn't suppress it anymore. I woke up sobbing. I couldn't sleep. Worse yet, I had to work an 11 hour shift early in the morning. I had several panic attacks at work, really derailing any productivity. It felt cathartic in a way though. This game helped me confront a lot of emotional baggage I've been dealing with in a surprisingly healthy way. So yeah, share what you felt. It's important to. If you need to talk to someone, reach out.

Thanks for sharing this. Be safe.

thanks for reading, hope ur feeling better now

[Sammy 不安]

just thought of some more stuff that i didnt include in the original post.

i have also become obsessed with the game in nearly every way, getting to a point where i have yuri on everything i own. my pc wallpaper, my phone wallpaper, my steam profile, my twitter, my google+ account and am planning on getting some yuri stickers to put on my pc case. everything. im worried that people will judge me for this but i just cant help it. i think i need some help, even if its just talking to another person about my feelings, not just about the game, but in general. unfortunatly i cant really talk to irl people about this as most of my friends are of course, male, as am i, and they just wont understand how i feel. wish i had a girlfriend or something that i could express my feelings to, but im just to socially awkward to talk to anyone about it. do i need to seek help? idk anymore

[Sowwy I didn't get patewnaw wuv]

Dude, im in the same situation ;-; i dont think we need help

[VeeJay]

Originally posted by OdYsSeY:

just thought of some more stuff that i didnt include in the original post.

i have also become obsessed with the game in nearly every way, getting to a point where i have yuri on everything i own. my pc wallpaper, my phone wallpaper, my steam profile, my twitter, my google+ account and am planning on getting some yuri stickers to put on my pc case. everything. im worried that people will judge me for this but i just cant help it. i think i need some help, even if its just talking to another person about my feelings, not just about the game, but in general. unfortunatly i cant really talk to irl people about this as most of my friends are of course, male, as am i, and they just wont understand how i feel. wish i had a girlfriend or something that i could express my feelings to, but im just to socially awkward to talk to anyone about it. do i need to seek help? idk anymore

There's this wonderful website/app called 7 Cups. It's for people who are dealing with mental health issues. I would recommend signing up anonymously with a free account. They can put you in a 1 on 1 chat with a listener, or you could even make a post on their forums to specifically discuss how this game has affected you. If you really need it, they can even get you started with a paid therapist.

[Sammy 不安]

Originally posted by Vampire-Jekyll:

Originally posted by OdYsSeY:

just thought of some more stuff that i didnt include in the original post.

i have also become obsessed with the game in nearly every way, getting to a point where i have yuri on everything i own. my pc wallpaper, my phone wallpaper, my steam profile, my twitter, my google+ account and am planning on getting some yuri stickers to put on my pc case. everything. im worried that people will judge me for this but i just cant help it. i think i need some help, even if its just talking to another person about my feelings, not just about the game, but in general. unfortunatly i cant really talk to irl people about this as most of my friends are of course, male, as am i, and they just wont understand how i feel. wish i had a girlfriend or something that i could express my feelings to, but im just to socially awkward to talk to anyone about it. do i need to seek help? idk anymore

There's this wonderful website/app called 7 Cups. It's for people who are dealing with mental health issues. I would recommend signing up anonymously with a free account. They can put you in a 1 on 1 chat with a listener, or you could even make a post on their forums to specifically discuss how this game has affected you. If you really need it, they can even get you started with a paid therapist.

thanks for the advise man, might give it a try and see how it goes

[papidoru]

What do you think of monika?

[Sammy 不安]

Originally posted by papidoru1997:

What do you think of monika?

Honestly my least favorite character as she is the reason my favorite character (Yuri) is dead.

[Sammy 不安]

Originally posted by General Kwars:

we need a mod where doki doki lit club is a non murderous game where monika is just self awarea dn non one else dies

Honestly kinda wished that after you delete Monika it just started over andnplayed through as a normal dating sim, and you get to go the the festival and stuff. Would have been really cool

[papidoru]

what?? but she sacrifices EVERYTHING to be with you, how can you be so disheartened????

[Bonk Boy]

Well I dont have much to say that has not already been said but one thing that I whant to get out there is that this game and Sayori helped me understand in a better way my depression and I hope it has helped another person in here. ps:This is such a wonderfull comunity I can hardly belive it

[narutovizard]

To be open and honest. I myself have had extreme depression my entire life like Sayori. I have had a total of 3 attempts in my life. Finally started getting it under control.

I recently picked up ddlc and went in blind.
This Holiday Christmas- New years, I was in a very low point with some bad tendencies.

However when I played through DDLC it helped me through it. I know it sounds silly. But it really helped me realize that this is how depression really looks to alot of people looking from the outside, trying to understand it.

Its hard and frustrating not only to not be able to help but to only sit back and watch as they are in pain and it triggered some memroies of that happening in my life.

Im really glad that I played DDLC. It came at an extremely important part of my life. ( 26 in 2 days). I cant thank Team Salv. For all of their amazing hard work and the great community for sharing their experiences, like I am now.

[Phoenikz]

ya, i felt the same. sayori's death was just shocking, and made me stop the game for a little bit, then i continued. i did my best to just try and make something good happen (ideally something good with yuri) and then...bam. after the first part i had suspicions that yuri was cutting herself, and then we get the parts where we find her cutting herself, then she commits suicide, and i was just...i was shook. im still feeling a little weird. and tbh, i dont know if i can do it again. i want to try, but i dont know if i can.

[Sammy 不安]

Originally posted by papidoru1997:

what?? but she sacrifices EVERYTHING to be with you, how can you be so disheartened????

maybe so, but she sacrafices my favorite character to bew with me, so tbh it makes her seem pretty selfish. if she had just let me stay with yuri, maybe i wouldnt hate her as much as i do. but yeah, easily my least favorite character. my order of best to worst girl is: yuri>natsuki>sayori>monika

[Sammy 不安]

Originally posted by General Kwars:

yuri is number 2 to monika get it right son

wrong. yuri first, natsuki second, monika last