I'd like to see myself evolve my doubt into a capacity for seeing silver linings whenever approaching clouds


I don't feel like sharing sh~t no more
My thoughts, my emotions
Tell me "It'll be okay"
Yeah, no sh~t (yeah, no sh~t)
The universe won't implode 'cause I feel hollow, but I'm still hollow
And who gives a f~ck if I won't or I will tomorrow, guess I can't follow
And so you condescend me
Lying like you comprehend me
Conveniently karma friendly

Everyone else gets a pass
Everyone else was just having a bad day, say
Everyone else was just sad
Everyone else gets some slack
But when I'm at my lowest, components start frying inside of the board

Sleeping in yo f~cking arms and dreaming how they'll crush me
Go on, get it over with


I was in my element
A sage of joy and benevolence
Cleared my room of all elephants
Not a trace, not a set of prints, no
Talking about the present we was always in it
It was never about beginnings or endings, or how they'd spin it
Didn't spend it on venomous enemies talking offensive
Felt fine in my own skin for the first time in a minute

Why these voices always throw hands like Rayman?
How come they always wanna play the Hangman?
Cave in in the cave I stay in
The water rises fast, I don't try escaping
At least not no more, man I've lost a lot
Friends passed, time passed, and I've lost the plot
Running through the rye, I done crossed the crop
Hiding from the sky and sun I tossed the clock


You think that you can stop me? Then you are in denial
I own all of the jury, the judge over the trial
You walked into a trap, I walk out with a smile


I don't wanna say goodbye
Let's just pretend that I was never here, oh


'Cause sometimes I look in her eyes
And that's where I find a glimpse of us
And I try to fall for her touch
But I'm thinkin' of the way it was
Said I'm fine and said I moved on
I'm only here passing time in her arms
Hopin' I'll find a glimpse of us


I know you better than you know yourself
Well, my self said "you can go straight to hell"
Get it (uh), f~ck it up (uh), what's the point of being sad?
Oh, you jealous? Oh, you mad?
Honey, you don't know the half
You don't know, baby
Uh, f~ck it up


If you took my place
Would you change my ways?
Would you change my name?
Would you change my face?
If you took my spot
Would you change a lot?
Would you change it all?
Would you change it-
Maybe this is what I get for leaving you out in the cold
Drag my body to the woods and let me go
Paint a picture of my life into the snow
Pull the trigger like I'd never even know
Maybe this is what I get for leaving you out in the rain
Pop the truck and drop my body in the grain
Throw a shovel at me, yell to dig a grave
Put the pistol to my ear, I heard it say
In the black on black or the white on white
It don't matter what you wear when you die, right?


Well, I've been meaning to dismiss you
Yeah I have some plans to dismiss you
So stand by, by, by, by, bye-bye
Wave bye, sugar boats!
As soon as you paint every last grain of sand
As you soon as you paint every star
In the sky, sky, sky, sky, sky, sky
Wave bye, sugar boats!


Well, I ain’t getting on no fast plane
Hell, I ain’t getting on no stuffy train
Sugar boats on the Atlantic are fine
The sugar boats, they're just fine
I'll stand on the deck so you could see
I'll stand on the deck you could wave bye, bye, bye, bye
Here's the ghost that goes and waves bye, bye, bye, bye
I'm the ghost that goes and waves bye, bye, bye


Hope never wins against self-hatred
Success is not a physical sensation, yet I still desire to taste it
Not sure if I’m allowed, or is pursuing folly?
The walls got arms and they pulling on me
Wetting wounds and scars when doing laundry
(Keep on f~сking up!)
I’m a vacuum personified in a human body
I move tsunamis and I dwarf voids
I need more luck and I need more poise
Spent EXP on self-awareness
What a poor choice


I'm alive, I'm alive
It is dramatic with just that
My frozen time is
My frozen time
My frozen time moves again


Can you hear it? The pulses of the living
The ironic rhythm is a grand orchestra
It's never the same tone, who wants to stop this
There can be when the violent storm is over
The blue sky is more beautiful than ever
You see I want that, I want that
That's all I want
I drift tonight carried by the waves
(I drift tonight carried by the waves)
I'll just be a black sea, I drift tonight (I drift tonight)
Please don't stop the flow (please don't stop the flow)


It took me 10 years to find the answers to something
I forgot about it in 2 seconds
I don't have anything that's really important to me
That's why everything is beautiful


We've got only one sky
Blue, red, and black paranoia
What is it like to you?
No one can see the colors but you
We've got only one sky
Joy, grief, wild paranoia
What is it like to you?
No one can see the colors, the colors
But you


Dive the deep blue sea, it is hard to breathe
The light goes out again
Never-ending road, a place without color
That's the world we can dye


In the light, cut away (Break off all vexations, cut off all vexation)
It's never over yesterday, no don't stand still
My vengeance will be sacrificed, then kill the pain
The hardest road lies ahead, I will be a mirror of the world

If that's what you call karma, I must be a demon


I had a dream there were snakes flying out of your mouth
Living under my porch
Living under my house


You made a fool out of me and took the skin off my back running
So don't breathe when I talk, 'cause you haven't been spoken to
I've got a gun for a mouth and a bullet with your name on it
But a trigger for a heart bleeding blood from an empty pocket


See people praying for a bright exit at the end
Well I'm just trying to enjoy the tunnel that we're in
Steady searching for something within
Why we judging qualities in others with this underlying envy in our skin, damn
Hold up, am I preaching again?
Am I being too naive, am I reaching again?
Should I joke about it and show how facetious I am?
And cease these thoughts from breaching my frame
And bleaching my brain, uh


I'm introverted with a flair for the dramatic
I'm sick of my despair, I'm so embarrassed
I'm sick of always caring so emphatic, I'm erratic
And when I really should care get distracted
It's apparent
I'm sick of hearing everybody's sh|t
Everybody's sh|t is worse than everybody's is
Exclaimed with pompous, confidence, along with youth flaunting accomplishments, plea for astonishment
Neither providing acumen uncommon, nor yet operative but hey
I won't listen to it, I won't heed it
Don't want to judge them, I'm no different, just conceited


If only I could peek
Beyond the wall and see
What I once thought was me
But it's out of reach


Well, hello
It's me again
I'm mellow
Still been trying to find the damn road
Sorta like trying to bite your elbow


There's no pesticide for what bugs my brain so I let it fly


Soul searching but no merchant
Offers happiness or purpose, it's all worthless


We were wanting to grow up every weekend
Now we're watching the moments as they're leaving


Future's made of virtual insanity
Now always seem to, be governed by this love we have
For useless, twisting, our new technology
Oh, now there is no sound
For we all live underground


Lately
I can't help but think that our roads might take us down different phases
Don't wanna complicate the rhythm that we got but I'm speechless
When everything's so pure, can it be aimless?
Painless?
If you ever go
All the songs that we like
Will sound like bittersweet lullabies

I used to feel abnormal
Lest I could fit in
I saw no path going forward
But things have changed since,
And now i have gone rogue
I used to give up time, but now I have no more.


Perhaps I'm obsessed with my own misery
Feels like if I ain't unhappy, then it isn't me

Drifting, I'm drifting
Not affected by gravity
I have no mass in living
And no charge to live happily
I keep drifting and drifting (Yeah I keep drifting)
Drifting and drifting (Yeah I keep drifting)
Drifting and drifting (Drifting, drifting)
My existence is baffling, yuh (DRIFITING)


Used to, used to, used to life
Used to bite my prey
Used to, used to, used to fly
Used to try migrate
Used to, used to, used to try
And justify my hate
Lose the useless strain before I've used up time I've saved


I start my day by carving it out of the hardest clay
Trying my darndest, aiming to reconstruct the shape
But since it hardens way to promptly, I disregard the detail instead concentrating on getting it roughly okay
There's a fine line between acceptable and not
Therefore I counteract my failures with embellishment a lot
But when the ruse succeeds, they tell me "cherish what I've got"
So I can't help it but feel helpless, must confess I'm at a loss
I need to find a better hobby
Than lying to myself it never calms me


Spent months saying, "Thank you,"
But "F~ck you," takes one second
F~ck you


Desperado, don't text me, hold myself hostage don't test me

And everything I've been through recently been costin'
And instead of tryna catch up on my life, I'd rather ride off a f~cking cliff despondent


If only I could
Put my left foot in front of my right foot
There's no spring to my step
(Such a pity!)
There's no swing to my walk
(Such a pity!)
There's no reason they left, though
We should be still out here taking the same steps!
(I can't repair)
If only I could
(I can't repair)
Put my left foot in front of my right foot
(I need repairing, can't see clear)


But, what's the objective?
It keeps changing every month
Now every week, every day, every minute
Now I'm running all the starting line afforded me is worthless, I don't want it
Told myself if I can walk a mile then I can run a hundred
With no finish line in sight, though I'm not sure what I'm becoming, yeah

Self sabotage embedded in my code
Feed these demons is all that I know


Please don't patronize me
'Cus frankly Imma be good
I ain't angry
Maybe I am
Angry as f~ck with this frame I command
This body was given to me by mistake
That must be it but replace it I can't, so

Please look away, don't pay me no mind
I don't always live with shame
I'm straight, I'm alright
Always ready for the rain, the rays they don't shine
I just want to hide my face
I pray you don't mind


Some say that life’s a b~tch, they sorta right
It’s known to bite
But it’s also known to work
And all It’s gone once life has ended
So maybe there might be some worth in trying to befriend it


I grew up being told "it's mind over matter
Push anxietiеs aside, hey, c'mon, they don't mattеr!"
Thought the problem was my lows, tried climbing a ladder
But when I fell and hit the floor, hope was all that had shattered
Do I want to prove you wrong or do I wanna live?
Or am I good to move along, water under the bridge
Some say "I do too much", and then nod "incorrect"
And yet I still don't do enough, not enough for myself

Going, oh sh~t, oh my god, here we go again
Let's put another band-aid on the open skin


My ego sheisty
It'll hold my hand then drop me off a cliff to spite me
Oh, you thought you was poppin' off? Yeah, thought I might be
Sh~t, I feel embarrassed, I'm logging off Twitter, goodnight, G
What was I thinking? Gotta get out quietly (Shhh)
Sh~t I been losing again and again
Doing too much, I been wearing out thin
Thought I could do everything, was convinced I could balance that personal life but I can't
When will this rush of adrenaline end?
I just want peace, I would settle for anything
Other than constantly stressin' and bottlin' things that I did
Wish it would make me content
I don't get it, I'm all in my feelings
I've become impatient, I'm always defeatist
I don't accept any applause, its suspicious
I run from giving them whole hearted credence
I guess that I'm-
Caught in this sequence that's toxic to me
Yet acknowledge allegiance to all of its schemes
And I'm not just prestigious, sh~t ain't ever sweet
I'm becoming anemic, yuh
R-A-V, 2022! (R-A-V!)
Still dancin' with the devil in disheveled shoes
Betty betty, woop
Steady, steady, hoop

The leaves were green, they turning yellow it seems
I get ahead of myself, still feeling dead on my feet


Some days I feel like I just can't care
I cross the road without checking first
'Cause in reality, in the grand scheme of things
Yo, f~ck all y'all
The roof? You can let it burn
Along with all of you


THEY JUST WANNA POKE YOU TILL A MOTHERF~CKER BLEED
(All dungeons)
SUFFOCATE ME, BABY, I DON'T WANNA F~CKING BREATHE
(No doors)
THEY JUST WANNA POKE YOU TILL A MOTHERF~CKER BLEED
(All dungeons)
ALL I SEE IS LOCKS WITHOUT A MOTHERF~CKING KEY
(No doors)


So close all the time, losing hope, I'll be fine
I'm just broke, I don't mind, I'm just low, I'm just blind
We can search for the best of me, like I just work to invest in me
These words don't mean I'll rest in peace
These words don't mean I'll rest in peace, yeah


You're my dream, you’re my nightmare
Life is a b~tch, she don't fight fair
Leave you right there
I was hopin' that you'd notice my despair
Run away from the pain, I don't care


Only my shell remains here
Lonely my soul left somewhere

The Whole world is kind to me
But sorry sorry sorry


Those who dream of heaven
Those who dream of heaven never last very long
The rotting flesh and the dirty sky infect my wounds
We're going home alive liar, liar
Forgive me, just get me out of this hell


It’s not a big deal
We can handle it
I don’t have to think about it
What we do here is clear, don’t you think
I don’t know any other answers than yes
And don’t need to know

Bark and bark
It’s a vacant dirge
Your regret that no one knows
Bark and bark
Keep going, that’s the last sound you’ll ever hear
(Who do you think I am?)
The kiss of death


I once had some sweet memories
Its worth remains all the same
How can I remember those moments, sweetheart?
Tell me (tell me), tell me
If there's a man who can make anything
Give me the tools to live in the past
It's all gone down so deep, I can't see anymore
If that's not the way to go
Let me, let me
Let me carve your way
I'm a shadow always with you


You know some beasts don't live in herds, just like that
I don't need your sympathy
Trigger with a brutish impulse
Trigger, the silent preacher
Watch out, keep your hands off
Don't make a big deal out of me
Trigger, don't be curious about me
I don't want you to get hurt
Watch out, keep your hands off
Don't make a big deal out of me


I'm a fool, I know nothing
I take the role of a silly clown
But I won't turn my back on life
I'm a fool, maybe I'm worthless
But this world created my faith
So all I do is stay hopeful and pray



Cold the hands the hands I see
They are cold and you down
Ain't they calling for me?
I wonder if you're real and nobody cares
But I love you so much
And we hardly ever met


A shadowy hand turns the page
A dark theatre, move across the stage
Teeth like a cone, scrape against the sky
Feelin' alone in a room full of life
Stealing a few extra moments and fighting against time

Pushed on and pushed aside
I've changed my song to match each story, I've changes sides
Can I watch 'em as they fall when they finally try to stand?
Redeem myself for everyone I've buried with these hands

I fight and I fight
Just to keep the spark alive
But if there'