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August 22, 2008
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40 hrs past 2 weeks
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24.1 hrs / 494.8 hrs
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A few poems I've written for English
-Brightness-
The wind whispering
The sun shining
The earth is alive
The power is incredible
I can't control it
Everyone
Dead
I pull the trigger
Another enemy down
Another part of my soul ripped from me
I can't take this bloodshed anymore
But I must
For my country
For my freedom
For my people
-In living...-
The sun is bright
The earth is calm
Then darkness
The sun is no more
Nor the earth
say good bye to life
say good bye to earth
say good bye to everything
The sun is gone
The earth is...
-Quote from friends myspace-
I miss when getting high only meant swinging at the playground; when protection meant wearing a helmet; when the worst thing you could get from girls were cooties, and the worst thing you could get from boys was a cold. Mom was your hero and your best friend, and dad's shoulders were the highest place on earth; your worst enemies were your sibling's; race issues were about who ran the fastest; and war was only a card game. The only drug you knew was cough medicine, the only thing you smoked was the tires on your bike, the only thing that could be broken were your toys, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow.
Where did those days go?
<Edited version>
Quote from "Looking for Alaska" by John Green
"Although no one will ever accuse me of being much of a science student, one thing I learned from science classes is that energy is never created and never destroyed. And if Alaska took her own life, that is the hope I wish I could have given her. Forgetting her mother, failing her mother and her friends and herself -- those are awful things, but she did not need to fold into herself and self-destruct. Those awful things are survivable, because we are as indestructible as we believe ourselves to be. When adults say, “Teenagers think they are invincible” with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don’t know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail.
So I know she forgives me, just as I forgive her. Thomas Edison’s last words were: “It’s very beautiful over there.” I don’t know where there is, but I believe it’s somewhere, and I hope it’s beautiful.”
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