it's one of my biggest regrets in life. never shall i join a server and not be ridiculed for my slippery past. everywhere i go, people feel the need to constantly remind me of what a horrible person i used to be. people say things like "kick him, he has a vac" and "once a cheater always a cheater". these things really dig into the sanity of a man.. but since then i have sworn to be better. i took a long look at my life and decided that i was going to change. no bullshit this time. yes, people may always mistreat me for my vac ban but hopefully someone out there will realise that i know i've done wrong. see that i'm trying my hardest to seek forgiveness. what i must do now is remain an honest man in the hopes of repaying my debts to society. to all the gamers i've selfishly fucked over online, i am sorry. please forgive me.