Spooky Verkäufer
Joshua   East Lake, Florida, United States

UGC - [ugcleague.com]
Team History
-HL Steel s14《⋰》[AP]《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-HL Steel s17《⋰》SiC《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-HL Iron s18《⋰》L²《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-HL Steel s19《⋰》pF《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-HL Steel s21《⋰》VnD《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-6s Iron s18《⋰》FtQ《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-6s Iron s20《⋰》6*S《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-6s Iron s21《⋰》PID 《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-6s Silver s22《⋰》D+G《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-6s Silver s23《⋰》wgg《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-6s Platinum s24《⋰》e6s《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-4s Silver s7《⋰》TSR《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-4s Silver s8《⋰》TSR《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-4s Silver s9《⋰》fragclub'《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-Open s24《⋰》D+GG《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-TFCL 6s《⋰》-1K-《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
-RETF2 6s《⋰》FtQ《⋰》ᴍᴇᴅ
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When your a Medic main~
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Spooky! Thats me! ~('◡'~)

I remember the first time someone explained to me what the word gay meant.
We were in middle school
Playing on the swing set behind Stoy Elementary
"He’s so gay," she said
Bitter disgust poured out of her mouth with every syllable
I could not think as to why being happy could be such a horrible thing
And so I asked
My exact words being
“Whats so wrong with being happy?”
Now both my friends looked at me weird
“Don’t you know what gay means?”
“Doesn’t it mean to be happy?”
“You’re such a little kid, gay does not mean happy. Gay is a boy who likes another boy”
I stood there wondering why it mattered so much that a boy liked another boy;
why it was such a distasteful thing.
And why it meant gay couldn’t still mean,

I hate these feelings
I hate that i’m different from everybody else
I hate how I can’t look at a woman and think
“Damn she’s sexy”
Or how I cant hug a woman without feeling weird in some way
And its all because deep down I know I don’t swing that way
I hate having to hide myself from others 
And having to create two people who are different from one another
I hate having to keep my true self hidden inside
And having to push all my true feelings aside
It feels almost like a giant boulder pressing down on my chest
Causing every bone, muscle, and artery to ache and throb in anger,
Every vein in my body wrapped around from my fingers to my legs ache
They ache in fear
Pure fear extract
Derived directly from the bottom pits of the soul 
The type of fear that you get when you have no idea where to go or what to do
The type of fear that makes you lose yourself inside your own mind
It creates a maze so complex that it makes you twist and turn 
And twist and turn 
Only to find yourself back at the beginning 
But I’m also tiered of this fear
Tiered of It weighing me down and making me feel insignificant to the world
Tiered of it making me feel as if I were the only person that felt this way 
I promised myself long ago that I would get rid of this horrid feeling
That I would make my unhallowed mind stable and sane
I can't get there
I know it.
But i’ll get through this maze I’ve created 
Maybe not today or tomorrow but someday…
- Trade Offers : Link~
- Age : 18
- Gender : Bigender
- Religion : Atheistic
- Sexuality : GAY!
- Mood : I hope to die.
- Best Games : TF2, Doom series
- TF2 Main : Medic
- Music : Hard Rock, Metal
- Favorite Colors : Blue, Gray and Black
- Hobbies : Video games, Balisongs, Programming, Networking
- Car : Mazda 3
- Languages : English, Python, C, C++, Assembly NASM and MASM32
- Job : Yes

Recent Activity

3,506 hrs on record
last played on May 23
345 hrs on record
last played on May 23
437 hrs on record
last played on May 22
Ⓐ Anarcho-Capitalist $ May 19 @ 12:34am 
Sir or Ma'am. I'll have you know that CAPITALISM is a [V]oluntary exchange between TWO or more individuals. It could be anonymous or face to face . We have our HOLY founding fathers (whom of which I love dearly ) that wrote the most sacred scriptures (our holy constitution) and provided us the holy land you and I live and breath on. I will defend my beautiful western society (creators of the best cuisine ) till the last breath if I have to from disgusting cultural marxism and forced equality of Communism (yuck, no thanks).
вυттхrғly 同志 ✯ May 17 @ 9:31pm 
👌roses are red👌👌💦nuts are brown🍒skirts go up 👌 pants go down🎅🏿body to body 👀 skin to skin🙌when its stiff 👤stick it in👅💦it goes in dry🤡its comes out wet🍖the longer its in 🔥 the stronger it gets💪🏿 it comes out dripping and starts to sag 💦🍆 its not what u think its a tetley teabag☕️
PoopMan May 17 @ 4:57pm 
Please make me a dick sign weapon. I have the picture, accept my friend request and you will have pleasure.
вυттхrғly 同志 ✯ May 16 @ 4:44pm 
👏 You must be 90 pounds 💀 or lighter, or you can't 😷🙌 be mine ☝️ because my ego is so big and my western ☠️ standards are so high 👆 You must be a literal skeleton 💀💀💀 and only eat one (1) grape 🍇 and one (1) peanut 🥜 a day or you aren't good enough for me 😎 the chief authority 👮 and daddy 🤓 on beauty standards and expert sexpert.
synthus May 6 @ 8:18pm 
Added because of :

- Fan of Doom series

- Mutual coder

- We are very alike?