I am known by many names, many of which are either random fictional characters or a collection of original characters I have created or adopted from friends. The variation of my personification is wild and unpredictable, and sometimes I change for one-time jokes among friends. If there is any permanent name you can associate with me, I suppose it would have to be Thoranzalar Vhazen, the name of a character of mine in one of my writings. Ironically, I almost never use this alias on steam, but due to my history with this name I prefer it as my permanent online identity. Also yes, you can shorten that name....
As for what kind of person I actually am, I believe that can only be accurately determined by my friends and the people I interact with on a daily basis. But if you'd like a short summary of how I see myself, then feel free to read on.
INTJ Introvert(69%) iNtuitive(41%) Thinking(9%) Judging(9%) A distinct preference of Introversion over Extraversion (69%) A moderate preference of Intuition over Sensing (41%) A slight preference of Thinking over Feeling (9%) A slight preference of Judging over Perceiving (9%)
I am not sure which of these two cards is most accurate, but I took my time to find the most professional looking online personality tests I could get access to. Though ironically I don't like trusting random pop psychology sites, these results seem relatively fitting. I'm somewhat more inclined to believe in the second card, INTJ, though I feel I am somewhere in between these two basic types.
I consider myself very introverted, there is no doubt about that. I gain emotional and physical energy in my time alone at home or in a personal space, which I then spend to get my daily business done in the world outside my deep dark moldy cave. But more on that, I am also very socially awkward and I rarely use voice communication, or talk to people in person much at all. I am aware there is a difference between beign socially awkward and socially introverted (as I believe many people consider themselves one when they are actually the other), but I certainly believe I am both of these things. I am not a social butterfly at all and I rarely initiate conversation. Because of this, many seem feel alienated from me and some even feel I am being hostile when in reality I am not. Although I usually isolate myself, I do not mean to reject others, and I welcome a good chat.
In general, I am very level-headed and mellow, despite what my hyperactive and sarcastic internet-face may project. I am an optimist by nature, though I have a very dark sense of humor. I'm far from leader material, but when I am assigned a duty, I make sure to deliver as best as I can and I deeply value loyalty - however I am very prone to procrastinating; my best work is accomplished when I have a sense of a rush to the finish line. I really enjoy being a good host when I have the opportunity, as I like providing for people and establishing a functional environment. At the same time however, I usually fear a position of authority due to my poor social skills; I am rarely the leader of the party. Instead, I pride myself in being the ultimate right-hand man or henchman.
I am very much a free-thinker, though not much of an activist. I am always open to new ideas, and I consider myself very socially liberal, though I do not know much about economics; I am neutral on most political issues. My only real rule is I don't like anyone who thinks religion should influence government. For the most part, I am very accepting of "different kinds of people". I am an egalitarian, an atheist, a fat fuck and somewhat sympathetic towards socialist or semi-socialist ideals. I lean towards being a social-democrat after seeing politicians like Bernie Sanders, though I have random views that range from liberal to conservative when it comes to gun control laws and the prisons and the death penalty. I am also dyslexic, which gives me a very noticable speech impediment that probably adds to my social ineptitude. When I write to you, expect a lot of odd grammar and spelling issues such as me accidently using the wrong word or taking sudden unexpected pauses when I have a minor brain fart. Sometimes I can also misinterpret what you write. If your life ever depended on me hastily solving a math problem, you'd basically be dead, because my dyslexia also has an effect on my mathematical derpitude.
As for my interests, I like to think. That sounds stupid, I know, but I am very much a thinker more than I am an activist. I enjoy writing alone with music, though ironically, my dyslexia makes it difficult for me to find the will to read heavily as it takes a lot of effort. I like to roleplay, though I don't normally do it through steam anymore since lately I've become less social. If I could draw, I would easily be the type who would constantly scribble and express my creativity, but unfortunately, I am a shit. For the most part I just glue myself to my computer, as video games are my main source of entertainment. I'm very interested in nature, science, paranormal bullshit and fiction. I'm also into nearly all forms of music - there is no genre or era that cannot please me at the right time.
I try not to judge others, but when I do, I prefer to judge people by their actions more than their thoughts. I try to be as unbiased as possible by distancing my emotions from my logic. In general I am not very confrontational, but when I feel you are doing something wrong or stupid, I do not shy from an argument - at least not on the internet. I am much more of a stupid fucking coward in real life and I suck all of the cocks. I consider myself perceptive, and I believe empathy and constructive criticism are some of the most valuable parts of being a human being.
I hope all of this has encouraged you to hate me just a little bit less.