HmX Gaming .HmX*
HmX Gaming .HmX*
June 9, 2012
ABOUT HmX Gaming

High-Melting eXplosive Gaming

Team Fortress 2 community from 9 June 2012 to 13 March 2017.

Final announcement
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The End
HmX has, as of today, ceased to exist.
The reason for the sudden downtime of the servers is a hardware failure on the server, which is non-critical as the original setup might be restored... but it won't be.

Over the past month I have been depressed and sometimes even suicidal, and the main reason for this (as some of you might know) has been my girlfriend leaving me.
As ashamed as I am to admit it, it has affected me far more than any other event in my life ever has. I am still unsure over why this happened, and never expected nor wanted it to happen.
The past month has been filled with suffering and depression, as much as I tried to cope with everything else in my life still being seemingly normal (exams, work, holidays...) I can't bring myself to just forget, because for the second time in my life I've been scared of someone, paranoid and overall broken.
This is not a money issue, and it never was. I now work two jobs (which I had gotten thanks to her motivation) and make more than I ever have in the past, enough to cover the costs of my current holiday.
While donations did not even remotely cover the cost of HmX for the past 5 years (monthly total would be around 130 euros/mo) I was happy to pay the bills and enjoy the community members having fun in the servers I created for them.
Videogames, as of now, make me sick. As much as I'd like to admit to something else, like being tired of running servers, or bothered by the constant admin reports, or any other excuse I could possibly think of, the real reason is that ever since that day (one month ago now) I have been unable to enjoy videogames as I used to, and over the past weeks mild annoyance has turned into actual physical sickness, to the point I am now unable to play games like Team Fortress 2 or Left 4 Dead 2 without feeling sick. Steam itself is now something I try to avoid.
The reason for all of this, as I've said, has been my girlfriend leaving me, an event that has caused me extreme pain, sadness and a lot of truly frightening thoughts.

I beg those of you that know who I'm talking about NOT to take it out on her, nor harass her: it was her decision to leave me and I will respect it, as much pain as it's caused and is causing me, and as much as I never wanted nor expected it to happen.
I am simply unable to find the motivation to keep the community and the servers going, and the unexpected hardware failure on the server has forced me to call it a day sooner than I had hoped.

Premium users are advised to cancel their premium subscriptions through PayPal. Those of you who have active premium subscriptions and wish to ask for a refund will receive it as soon as I'm able to process your requests (I'm currently on holiday).

I want to thank all members, admins and staff, present and past, from the bottom of my heart: you all have helped build HmX and make it an experience none of us will ever forget.

HmX has helped me grow both as a person and in my profession, as I was able to acquire skills (particularly in coding) which I wouldn't have been able to without the motivation of such an amazing community.

Special thanks go to the original staff team and the current one: you all are truly amazing friends who have helped me more than I will ever be able to help you, and for that you have my eternal gratitude.

The past five years have been truly amazing, and we've managed to reach incredible achievements for such a small community: our DeathRun server was 4th worldwide at one point, and 6th just a few days ago, and we also implemented new software and maps never seen before on Team Fortress 2!

Thank you everybody for the good times.

Yours truly,
naPalm - HmX Founder and owner

All bans, gags and mutes removed
Fan[T]ik_74Rus Mar 18 @ 10:11am 
Fan[T]ik_74Rus Mar 18 @ 10:10am 
Roger Moore Mar 16 @ 1:29pm 
HI im a weeabo :D i love being ignorant and not find out why really something happens xDDDD I'm a huge faggot someone please rape my face LE_FUNNY_MEME <insert dick joke here> (joke gone wrong) (gone left) (gone right) (gone upsidedown) (gone serbia) (gone am i dead yet?????????) (gone how to kill myself instantly)
Hill II Mar 16 @ 6:18am 
seriously you shut down server coz of personal issue? Talk about professionalism here, lol.
VODKA STOLICHNAYA Mar 16 @ 3:42am 
FranGT (voice_enable 0) Mar 15 @ 3:52pm 
I'm late but I have some shit to say anyway:

Played here since its "transition" from VIA to HMX, back in 2011. Thanks for all this years of fun and learning about not only Deathrun but Source Engine mechanics in general, really useful for other gamemodes and even for other games like Gmod and CS:GO (because they are Source based, duh).

And suck it Azidium and Izotope, I survived this until the end, with 9/10 warning points :D
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June 9, 2012